Uni Life

Towards the end of my 3 year course in City University London, suddenly there were pink & green couches appearing at one part of our university building. And then what to us was funnier was this fake sheep on fake grass just down the steps from the pink & green couches. We weren't sure what they (university management) were trying to show here. Maybe they were trying to be funny. Maybe they were trying to make it a more comfortable place to 'chill'. To us, it was just another thing to laugh about.

University was an interesting 3 years of my life. I met a lot of people from different walks of life. Classmates born in one country but the parents' origin from another. I was already different in that aspect. Born in the Philippines to Filipino parents, and proud of it. But I would have to say parts of university life was awkward too. To be honest, I was more like myself outside of uni, then I was at uni. I wouldn't stay around for long. I went to class and went home or to the embassy after, unlike in high school. It just didn't feel quite right.

The best thing of it all was meeting one of my best friends in uni. If I keep any memory from those 3 years, it would be my friendship with her. Even though we're in different countries now, and continents and timezones too, I'm thankful that there's facebook, twitter, whatsapp and bbm for us to keep in touch. Oh and skype too, but timezone issues go into play here.

So since today is Wednesday, it's time for sushi and cheesecake. Just like the we would use to do.

Embassy life

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This is how I typically spend my evenings, after work or uni, I wait for my dad to finish work and we go home together. I could go home ahead of him, well sometimes if he has late meetings or dinner meetings. But since I'm lazy and quite tired to commute after work or uni, I just wait for him (sometimes asleep in the car). I don't mind waiting, although sometimes it does get boring, but I get to catch on sleep. 

Instagram 101: Life in Pictures

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This was my home for the last six years of my life, in London. And I definitely miss it. The coldness and having my own bed and room. It feels different to be back in our house in Manila. Especially since it's hot when it should be atleast cool in December time.

Oh London, I hope to see you soon.

Story about my Love & Life!

What i discovered "About (my) Love & Life via Day of Birth"

You were born on 16th day of November 19--, Wednesday.

Your Life : You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You are often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true.

Your Love : You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at first sight is not your style.

pages of a diary

May 20, 2009

"okay, so i'm finally writing again. this comes from reading too much fanfiction. it has got me feeling certain emotions and thinking - thinking alot more than i already do. jumbled thoughts swin around my mind and my heart, filled with too much emotions, just wants to burst.

i'm confused and i'm lost. i feel so alone in my world of friends and family. i've got my whole life ahead of me and yet i'm scared. scared of failing my parents - to have them say that my best is simply not (never) enough. scared of all the hard work and obstacles that i would have to face to get to where i need to be. i know i'm strong enough but i'm still afraid that i could be proven wrong that shows i'm not strong enough - and maybe never was.

i feel a little empty - like something's missing - like a jigsaw puzzle that's missing one piece - like i'm just not whole or complete. it's something that just doesn't feel right, like something doesn't fit.

my heart's searching.. my mind's screaming..

maybe, just maybe, this is all too much for my little heart to handle."

i love friends.

season 10 - episode 16: The One With Rachel's Going Away Party

this is just one of my favorite episodes from one of my all-time favorite tv shows, friends. this is the episode where rachel says goodbye to each of her friends individually, except for ross. he then gets mad and the two of them end up kissing after she explains that she was putting it off because of how hard saying goodbye to him would be. i remember watching this episode one day, back when i was in the philippines, and was days from leaving. and i couldn't help but cry. i felt what rachel felt. there was just so many people - so many friends that i was gonna miss. of course, the part where rachel tells ross why she found it hard to say goodbye to him was one of my favorite scenes. (can relate? hehe. hmm..)

Rachel: "You really think i didn't say goodbye to you because i don't care."

Ross: "Thats what it seemed like."

Rachel: "I cannot believe that after 10 years, you do not know one thing about me."

Ross: "Fine, then why didn't you say something?"

Rachel: "Because it is too damn hard, ross. I can't even begin to explain to you how much i'm gonna miss you. When i think about not seeing you everyday it makes me not want to go, okay? So if you think that I didn't say goodbye to you because you don't mean as much to me as everybody else, you're wrong. It's because you mean more to me. So there, alrite? There's your goodbye."

this episode is one that reminds of the good times and that i do want to go home and visit. and yes, i swear that i have to go home and visit this year. yes friends, 2008 is the year.

runaway from here

last weekend was just so much fun. the getaway from civilization was just what i needed for a fresh start. for two days i was disconnected from almost all technology. i felt i was detached from everything i held so tightly in the past. on the edge of the cliff, i just wanted to scream and shout and let everything out. i wanted to run wild and free. i wanted to scream everything out and say whatever i want to say. and all i have to do is leave it behind in wales.

to be honest, the whole thing of moving on is hard and easy in a way. it's easy because i've been busy. all of a sudden, i find myself having lots of things to do and places i have to go to and things to celebrate. it's very rare that i be alone to my thoughts which scare me. it's hard because it hurts. at times, i just want to cry but i have to stop myself. sometimes i don't actually have the tears to shed.

plus there are dreams that i don't want to remember or even think about. the kind of dreams where it shows what exactly you want to happen or what you have been constantly thinking about lately. i had this dream last night. and it scared me. they say dreams could come true while others say that opposite happens in real life. and i do hope the opposite happens.

we all go through different things in our life. and they are suppose to make us stronger. and most of all, they serve a purpose, a lesson to be learned. somehow i think about what is the purpose for all of this to happen. i just want to know.

is it something for me to put in mind?
it is some preparation for future endeavours?
is it even something that is suppose to be special to me for the rest of life?

i don't really know or understand. for now, i just want to move on and live my life without it.
there's no turning back. not now or ever.

finally.

yes, finally. i've been so busy all week that i haven't really been able to sit down in front of my laptop for long and actually write about stuff i have done and been thinking. and now i'm thinking it's been a week. a busy week for me here. and a quiet one about me from over there. time flies so fast and i'm ok with it. it still hurts sometimes and i'm sad. but it only lasts for a few minutes and no tears are shed.

life goes on. we are all now going through different things in our lives. some are happy. some are in love. some have things that bother them. some are sad. some are busy. some are lost. but we still all have each other. despite distance, time and everything else in between. i still have my friends. during the ups and downs in my life. even when agreed with my choices or not. even though i'm here. there would always be there for me. i know they got my back. which is why i'm so blessed to have them. and i'll be forever thankful.

thank you guys. you already know why.