Friday, 25 May 2007


At the End of the World, the Adventure Begins

i watched the movie today with veronica and we just loved it. we decided in just 5mins to watch it. haha. (let's do it again very! next time we will switch cinemas. haha!) it was a cool movie. i love johnny depp. captain jack sparrow was so witty. funny part with him was seeing himself so many times. on the ship and when he was prisoner of the dutchmen. it was quite funny.

'"nobody move! i dropped my brain."
"it's just good business"
"you may throw my hat if you wish. now go and get it."
"we must fight, to run away! "
"cruel is a matter of perspective."
"if you choose to lock your heart away you'll lose her for certain."
"close your eyes and pretend it's all a bad dream. that's how I get by." (i love this.)

and of course, there was his signature flight with the rope. saw it quite a few times in the movie. i love orlando bloom. he's so cute. i love the part when he and keira knightly were getting married. the wedding scene was just so amusing. hahaha. it was when they were fighting, at the war scene. all of sudden, in between fights, he was pulling her to him and asking her to marry him and wedding vows. even captain barbosa was in on it as he was the one who wed the two.

just some quotable quotes from the movie:

"for certain, you have to be lost to find places that can't be found. elseways, everyone would know where it was." (veronica's favorite line.)
"this is madness. this is politics."
"you can fight and all of you will die, or you can surrender in which case only most of you will die."
"what is it you want the most?"
"i will be free. and when I am, i would give you my heart. and we would be together always...if only you had a heart to give."
"it's not about living forever,'s about living forever with yourself."
"no course is lost if but one fool is left to fight."
"the world's a smaller place mate, the world's the same - there's just less in it."
"it (my heart) was always yours...will you keep it safe?"
"dying is the day worth living for."
"our fates were always intertwined,...but never joined. "
"i love you. i've made my choice. what's yours?"

it's a great movie to watch. cool. i recommend that you do. it's worth it. astig.

to those who wouldn't like it, boo you! i so want this movie on dvd.

Thursday, 24 May 2007

which HERO are you?

Your Score: Simone Deveaux

You scored 66 Idealism, 45 Nonconformity, 20 Nerdiness

You think you can paint the future. Fine, paint one without me.

Congratulations, you're Simone Deveaux! You are a loving, dedicated person with a variety of creative interests. You may however, fall in love a little too easily.

Your best quality: You are a romantic
Your worst quality: You are a romantic

Link: The Heroes Personality Test written by freedomdegrees on OkCupid, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Wednesday, 23 May 2007

ain't no sense in that

i look out. it's getting dark. the moon's beginning to shed it's light. i'm starting to feel cold. i feel the wind on my skin. it's such a nice feeling. i close my eyes. and imagine i'm floating. somewhere lying between the clouds. i feel light. like a big weight has been taken from me. no worries, no pain, no hurt, no sadness. i feel calm and relaxed. and then, i open my eyes. all there was a teardrop and a smile.

Sunday, 20 May 2007

which Superhero are you?

Your results:
You are Superman

Wonder Woman
Green Lantern
The Flash
Iron Man
You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

Wednesday, 16 May 2007

just saying so

finals have started this week. my first exam would be on monday. maths. and believe it or not, i'm nervous and scared. hahahaay. after that, summer sets in. and earlier, my dad was talking about planning his schedule for the summer. and he was talking about europe, especially paris. woohoo! eiffel tower and disneyland! hihihi! exciting. but then, what about going home and visiting? maybe if this happened three weeks ago, i would have whined about going home and push it to happen. but now, i find it wierd. i'm confused. do you think it's a good idea to not go home for a while and maybe in another year or two? do you think that this is for the best? maybe it's just what i need. but then, i would have missed out on so much more.

Monday, 14 May 2007

time to vote

election day! weee! i don't know why i sound so excited when i'm not actually registered to vote. my dad totally forgot all about it. so no one's actually registered to vote at our house now. tsk tsk.. what a waste of six votes. haha. but anyway, it still excites me because of the counting of votes. yes, that's what i am here at the philemb for. i have been watching them as they check the ballots to see if they're valid, invalid, questionable or spoiled. then after they have done so, they start counting the votes. it's a three man team and alternating shifts. one says the name on the ballots. the other tallies the votes on the small tally sheet while the third member writes on the giant tally sheet for all to see. it's all so cool to see the tally sheet up close and personal. first time.

actually i just kid around and say that i'm here for the food. yes, free food. haha. but it's so nice to help them once in a while and being here keeps my mind of other things. it's so fun staying up late because i'm waiting for the final results here in london. although at some point while watching them, it still gets boring. so from time to time, i go to my dad's office and watched 300 online. cool movie. so overall, i just love today. and believe it or not, i'm having fun. weee..

oh, before i forget. it's really amusing to see my dad on televison as well. catch him here on tv patrol. just click the link below. fyi: to those who haven't seen my dad, he's the guy in the black suit carrying the ballot boxes around. the news clip starts at 2:18. bonus, you get to see the inside of the philemb residence. enjoy. haha.

Sunday, 13 May 2007

wave as time passes by

time flies by so fast. this, we should all realize by now. for me, it's amazing that in one month, i have lived in the u.k for a year now. it all seems unbelievable. one year has gone by so quickly and many things have changed.

looking back, way way back, we used to be playing hide-and-seek and tag and barbie dolls and text and jackstones and all the other games we play when we were young. actually, it's better to say, when we were younger.

all day long, i have been playing with kids. even taking care of them. one was even calling me mommy. gahd, that felt old at that moment. hahaha. but atleast it lets the parents know i can be trusted. anyway, playing with the kids reminded me how fun and carefree life used to be. we just wanted to have fun and that was all that mattered.

if we are happy, we jump for joy. if we want something, we can just someone older to get it for us. if we are hurt, we simply cry. and when we cry, someone's ready to wipe our tears and comfort us. the simple life. it all seems so long ago. something like ten years ago. and look at ourselves now. i think of friends and we all are so-grown-up.

in a year or so, some of my friends are graduating from college and would venture out into the 'real' world. they would be working by then and earning money on their own. no more parents to tell us to study our lessons and do our homework. i have experienced how it is to work. yes, me, work. some are already busy doing duties and on-the-job training. sooner or later, we would all be out there. and it isn't a joke anymore. nothing would be a joke anymore. no more trials, just the real thing.

everything's changing so fast. everything's happening so soon. and it seems so surreal. someone pinch me. i must be dreaming.

Saturday, 12 May 2007

love at a distance

today's happenings lead me to think about relationships and movies. why is it that usually, it's the leading man who has to go away and leave the leading lady behind. so it's usually the girl who ends up waiting in vain for her so-called mr. right to return. sometimes he does. sometimes he doesn't. love can be so unfair. when everything is going right, life just has a funny way of letting good things come to an end. [note: i just love nelly furtado's song called 'all good things (come to an end)'. i just looove it. ]

there was once a time i believed or more likely, wanted this guy to be the one. but somehow, deep down inside, i know i was just trying to convince myself that he was actually the one. somehow i was just making believe in something i know can never really happen. the truth be told, he can never be the guy right for me. i need someone who can handle my personality and understand my complexity as a person. personally, i don't really have high expectations at all. but one thing the guy must understand is the life i lead. there are quite a few secrets he has to handle and learn to deal with. there are things that not everyone goes through and though you reading this now may not understand, it's simply put to be a complicated situation. likewise, the guy must have a backbone and actually stick to whatever says.

there should be no second thoughts. no second chances. no trials. one time, big time. no turning back.

Friday, 11 May 2007

walking in the rain

come to london and you will see that people actually walk in the rain without an umbrella. and i'm getting used to that. walking in the rain without an umbrella is fun. although the thought of getting sick isn't quite nice. but it is something you have to get used to in living here. funnily enough, i remember back home how people have umbrellas and use them when it's raining and even when the sun is burning.

i love rain. i love the feeling when i'm at my window and i look out to the pouring rain. it feels so nice. i love the sentimental thoughts i have during that moment. i love the feel of rain on my face as well. any thing that i just want to let go goes with all the raindrops that fall. all my worries and burdens drown with the rain. and it's refreshing. it just makes me feel good.

oh, i just realized elections are nearing. and it feels fun to know i'm really close to all the election processes, the ballot boxes and of course, the counting of votes. with my dad as the chairman to the election committee here in london, it's exciting. although all the talk of politics and election has been running through my ears over and over and over again. and it's getting boring. too bad i wasn't able to register this year so i won't be able to vote. dad totally forgot about it that even he isn't registered. haha. i'll just be waiting to vote for president in 2010. so to all those voting on may14, vote wisely! haha.

Wednesday, 9 May 2007

mixed emotions

ok. so here goes. i just finished watching spiderman 3 online. and i just love it. i love the fact that i can watch for free online. cool.

today was a good day. i remembered this morning where i was stuck in the middle of 3 vietnamese friends from college. they were talking in vietnamese and i couldn't understand a single word they were saying. i felt left out. and it was so wierd. how i wish i could understand vietnamese. it would be such a laugh to know what they were actually saying without them knowing. hahaha.

i hate when i'm alone to my thoughts. i daydream alot. the one particular scene i always have in mind is that day in february. to be exact, february 25, 2006. somehow i wanted things to be different. i always remember what song you were playing. and somehow i wish i could have played my cards differently. how i wish. oh, how i wish. i wish he could have known. i wish i felt this way about him before that day. and maybe, just maybe everything would be different.

so the whole day was going okay when i had this short talk with my friend. when the call ended, it felt different. well, atleast i felt different. all of sudden, i felt like a knife was stabbed through my heart. i felt sad. i felt like anytime soon, i would be on the verge of tears. which i didn't want to happen. i was fighting everything back and just wanted to keep it to myself. but i couldn't. so i called my friend back and blamed him for me feeling this way. hahaha. well, it was really his fault for making feel this way and remind me of things i don't want to remember. somehow everything turned okay. and probably i'll be able to get a good night sleep.

Tuesday, 8 May 2007

runaway from here

last weekend was just so much fun. the getaway from civilization was just what i needed for a fresh start. for two days i was disconnected from almost all technology. i felt i was detached from everything i held so tightly in the past. on the edge of the cliff, i just wanted to scream and shout and let everything out. i wanted to run wild and free. i wanted to scream everything out and say whatever i want to say. and all i have to do is leave it behind in wales.

to be honest, the whole thing of moving on is hard and easy in a way. it's easy because i've been busy. all of a sudden, i find myself having lots of things to do and places i have to go to and things to celebrate. it's very rare that i be alone to my thoughts which scare me. it's hard because it hurts. at times, i just want to cry but i have to stop myself. sometimes i don't actually have the tears to shed.

plus there are dreams that i don't want to remember or even think about. the kind of dreams where it shows what exactly you want to happen or what you have been constantly thinking about lately. i had this dream last night. and it scared me. they say dreams could come true while others say that opposite happens in real life. and i do hope the opposite happens.

we all go through different things in our life. and they are suppose to make us stronger. and most of all, they serve a purpose, a lesson to be learned. somehow i think about what is the purpose for all of this to happen. i just want to know.

is it something for me to put in mind?
it is some preparation for future endeavours?
is it even something that is suppose to be special to me for the rest of life?

i don't really know or understand. for now, i just want to move on and live my life without it.
there's no turning back. not now or ever.

Monday, 7 May 2007

what my name means..

You entered: anna katrina toledo catapang

There are 25 letters in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 94
There are 11 vowels and 14 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:
Swedish - Female - Grace.
Russian - Female - Grace.
Native American - Female - Mother (Algonquin).
Latin - Female - Variant of Anne. Biblical; devout woman who saw infant Jesus presented at the temple in Jerusalem. Daughter of Dido.
Hebrew - Female - Favour or grace. Prayer. God has favoured me. Variant of Hannah.
Greek - Female - A variant of Hannah. In Virgil's 'Aeneid', Anna was sister of Dido, Queen of Carthage. According to an apocryphal gospel, Anna was also the mother of the Virgin Mary.
English - Male - Name of a king.
English - Female - Variant of Anne, meaning favor; grace.
Biblical - Female - Gracious; one who gives.
Arthurian Legend - Female - Arthur's sister.
Anglo-Saxon - Male - Name of a king.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 6

A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Saturday, 5 May 2007

date of birth

16 November 1988

Your date of conception was on or about 24 February 1988 which was a Wednesday.

You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Scorpio.
Your Life path number is 8.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path number 6.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 1 & 5.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 7 & 9.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447481.5.
The golden number for 1988 is 13.
The epact number for 1988 is 11.
The year 1988 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/17/1988 and ending 2/5/1989.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Dragon.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Snake; your plant is Thistle.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Tyby, the first month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 7 Kislev 5749.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 8 Kislev 5749.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is which is
12 baktun 18 katun 15 tun 9 uinal 17 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Wednsday, 6 Rabi'u'th-Thani 1409 (1409-4-6).

The date of Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 3 April 1988.
The date of Orthodox Easter on your birth year was Sunday, 10 April 1988.
The date of Ash Wednesday (the first day of Lent) on your birth year was Wednesday 17 February 1988.
The date of Whitsun (Pentecost Sunday) in the year of your birth was Sunday 22 May 1988.
The date of Whisuntide in the year of your birth was Sunday 29 May 1988.
The date of Rosh Hashanah in the year of your birth was Monday, 12 September 1988.
The date of Passover in the year of your birth was Saturday, 2 April 1988.
The date of Mardi Gras on your birth year was Tuesday 16 February 1988.

As of 5/9/2007 7:55:51 AM EDT
You are 18 years old.
You are 222 months old.
You are 964 weeks old.
You are 6,748 days old.
You are 161,959 hours old.
You are 9,717,595 minutes old.
You are 583,055,751 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday:
Trevor Penick (1979) Oksana Baiul (1977) Lisa Bonet (1967)
Dwight Gooden (1964) Shigeru Miyamoto (1952) Daws Butler (1916)
Burgess Meredith (1908)

Top songs of 1988
Roll with It by Steve Winwood
Every Rose Has Its Thorn by Poison
One More Try by George Michael
Look Away by Chicago
Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley
Sweet Child O' Mine by Guns N' Roses
Anything for You by Gloria Estefan & Miami Sound Machine
Get Outta My Dreams, Get into My Car by Billy Ocean
Man In the Mirror by Michael Jackson
The Flame by Cheap Trick

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.64109589041096 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 191 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 19 candles.

Those 19 candles produce 19 BTUs,
or 4,788 calories of heat (that's only 4.7880 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.17 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1988 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.
In 1988 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1988 in the US there were 2,389,000 marriages (9.7%) and 1,183,000 divorces (4.8%)
In 1988 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)
In the US a new person is born approximately every 8 seconds.
In the US one person dies approximately every 12 seconds.

In 1988 the population of Australia was approximately 16,687,082.
In 1988 there were approximately 246,193 births in Australia.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 116,816 marriages and 41,007 divorces.
In 1988 in Australia there were approximately 119,866 deaths.

Your birthstone is Citrine

The Mystical properties of Citrine

Citrine is said to help one connect with Spirit.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Yellow Topaz, Pearl, Diamond

Your birth tree is

Chestnut Tree, the Honesty
Of unusual beauty, does not want to impress, well-developed sense of justice, vivacious, interested, a born diplomat, but irritable and sensitive in company, often due to a lack of self-confidence, acts sometimes superior, feels not understood, loves only once, has difficulties in finding a partner.

There are 230 days till Christmas 2007!
There are 243 days till Orthodox Christmas!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was in its first quarter.

Thursday, 3 May 2007

I Can't Make You Love Me

I'll let the song do the talking... This is how I feel.

I Can't Make You Love Me

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You cant make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

'Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You cant make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

Ain't no use in crying, baby.

Tuesday, 1 May 2007


yes, finally. i've been so busy all week that i haven't really been able to sit down in front of my laptop for long and actually write about stuff i have done and been thinking. and now i'm thinking it's been a week. a busy week for me here. and a quiet one about me from over there. time flies so fast and i'm ok with it. it still hurts sometimes and i'm sad. but it only lasts for a few minutes and no tears are shed.

life goes on. we are all now going through different things in our lives. some are happy. some are in love. some have things that bother them. some are sad. some are busy. some are lost. but we still all have each other. despite distance, time and everything else in between. i still have my friends. during the ups and downs in my life. even when agreed with my choices or not. even though i'm here. there would always be there for me. i know they got my back. which is why i'm so blessed to have them. and i'll be forever thankful.

thank you guys. you already know why.