What i discovered "About (my) Love & Life via Day of Birth"
You were born on 16th day of November 19--, Wednesday.
Your Life : You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You are often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true.
Your Love : You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at first sight is not your style.
Wednesday, 10 June 2009
Monday, 8 June 2009
pages of a diary
May 20, 2009
"okay, so i'm finally writing again. this comes from reading too much fanfiction. it has got me feeling certain emotions and thinking - thinking alot more than i already do. jumbled thoughts swin around my mind and my heart, filled with too much emotions, just wants to burst.
i'm confused and i'm lost. i feel so alone in my world of friends and family. i've got my whole life ahead of me and yet i'm scared. scared of failing my parents - to have them say that my best is simply not (never) enough. scared of all the hard work and obstacles that i would have to face to get to where i need to be. i know i'm strong enough but i'm still afraid that i could be proven wrong that shows i'm not strong enough - and maybe never was.
i feel a little empty - like something's missing - like a jigsaw puzzle that's missing one piece - like i'm just not whole or complete. it's something that just doesn't feel right, like something doesn't fit.
my heart's searching.. my mind's screaming..
maybe, just maybe, this is all too much for my little heart to handle."
"okay, so i'm finally writing again. this comes from reading too much fanfiction. it has got me feeling certain emotions and thinking - thinking alot more than i already do. jumbled thoughts swin around my mind and my heart, filled with too much emotions, just wants to burst.
i'm confused and i'm lost. i feel so alone in my world of friends and family. i've got my whole life ahead of me and yet i'm scared. scared of failing my parents - to have them say that my best is simply not (never) enough. scared of all the hard work and obstacles that i would have to face to get to where i need to be. i know i'm strong enough but i'm still afraid that i could be proven wrong that shows i'm not strong enough - and maybe never was.
i feel a little empty - like something's missing - like a jigsaw puzzle that's missing one piece - like i'm just not whole or complete. it's something that just doesn't feel right, like something doesn't fit.
my heart's searching.. my mind's screaming..
maybe, just maybe, this is all too much for my little heart to handle."
Sunday, 7 June 2009
it's official,
i'm back. i'm back to blogging. finally have the time. (well not really but i'll try real harder)
SUMMER is here! and it is gonna be AWESOME! :)
be back tomorrow. i'll start posting stuff i've been writing in my notebook. :)
I wished my ultimate favorite, bestest sister in the world a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
BabySis I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!! :))
SUMMER is here! and it is gonna be AWESOME! :)
be back tomorrow. i'll start posting stuff i've been writing in my notebook. :)
Happiness is the feeling you're feeling when you want to keep feeling it. :)
“One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.” :(
I wished my ultimate favorite, bestest sister in the world a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
BabySis I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH!! :))
Monday, 1 June 2009
Favorite May Tweets
I would sneak quick glances at you. Sometimes a few seconds longer. Hoping no one notices who I'm staring at. Hoping you don't notice too.
Life is not a race. Do take it slower. Hear the music. Before the song is over.
All I wanna do is lie on my bed and cover myself with pillows and my blanket, keeping me warm, and just sleep. Sweet dreams are good too.
"There must be something between us, even if it's only an ocean." - An Affair to Remember. "And all I could say was, 'hello'."
A dream will always be a dream, good or bad, when you wake up, reality intrudes. I just want to keep dreaming.
AKC got a message that on this day,God wants her to know that HE has an importnt purpose for you &made everythin possible for you to succeed
"These scars we wear remind us, The more we change, The more we're all the same Swept up in this emotion. - DC" Still my favorite IDOL. :)
"As happens sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much more than a moment. And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment. And then the moment was gone."
"Coz when you're fifteen & somebody tells u that they love u you're gonna believe them. Wish u could go back &tell yourself what u know now"
“Sometimes it’s easier to say that you don’t care than to explain all the reasons you do”
Happy thought for today. I saw NJ and his mom. It's a good shot in my head. :))
Tree Hill will never be the same without Lucas Eugene Scott.
The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you...
"The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours." -Ayn Rand
All I wanna do is lie on my bed and cover myself with pillows and my blanket, keeping me warm, and just sleep. Sweet dreams are good too.
"There must be something between us, even if it's only an ocean." - An Affair to Remember. "And all I could say was, 'hello'."
"Coz when you're fifteen & somebody tells u that they love u you're gonna believe them. Wish u could go back &tell yourself what u know now"
Happy thought for today. I saw NJ and his mom. It's a good shot in my head. :))
Tree Hill will never be the same without Lucas Eugene Scott.
The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you...
"The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours." -Ayn Rand
Laughing, still can't get over the 2round fight. Manny Manny Manny! Hehehe :D
Confession #3: One of my guilty pleasures is the hot cookie dough with ice cream from Pizza Hut. *yummy*
Tuesday, 21 April 2009
follow me on twitter. *tweet tweet tweet*
ok, obviously i haven't been able to update my blog in ages. i know i know. it's been so long and so many things have happened to me, both good and bad, as well the ugly. hahaha :)
if you want to see what i have been doing and what i'm up to, just follow me on twitter. it's more convenient for me to tweet, a little easier to have my micro blog at the moment. see you there!Ü
click here: http://twitter.com/anirtakanna
if you want to see what i have been doing and what i'm up to, just follow me on twitter. it's more convenient for me to tweet, a little easier to have my micro blog at the moment. see you there!Ü
click here: http://twitter.com/anirtakanna
Thursday, 1 January 2009
Happy 2009!
My wishes for you in year 2009
Great start for Jan,
Love for Feb,
Peace for march,
No worries for April
Fun for May,
Joy for June to Nov,
Happiness for Dec,
Have a lucky and wonderful 2009.
To peace, love and life..
To family and friendship..
To a great year ahead..
Cheers!
Great start for Jan,
Love for Feb,
Peace for march,
No worries for April
Fun for May,
Joy for June to Nov,
Happiness for Dec,
Have a lucky and wonderful 2009.
To peace, love and life..
To family and friendship..
To a great year ahead..
Cheers!
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
on being a friend and a girl (part 2)
the question was... so when one of my best friends is falling for the guy i like, who is also my best friend; which one should i be, a friend or a girl?
the answer... well being a friend always comes easy to me, but being a girl is a tinnie bit complicated.
complicated much? hmm, not really. i guess it's really simple. coz there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
what i've realised is that i couldn't hurt my friend by making her feel guilty for liking the same guy i like. also, the guy who is also my friend, likes her back. so you can say, that if this was a battle, i lost. and it hurts. but i'm not gonna tell my friend that, i will let her be happy without having to think twice because of my feelings.
i've been hurt before, and the ache i feel right now is nothing compared to the hurt i felt before. but still, just like any pain, it stings. but again, just like any wound, it would heal, over time. this, too, will pass. and hey, what doesn't kill only makes you stronger, right?
the answer... well being a friend always comes easy to me, but being a girl is a tinnie bit complicated.
complicated much? hmm, not really. i guess it's really simple. coz there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
what i've realised is that i couldn't hurt my friend by making her feel guilty for liking the same guy i like. also, the guy who is also my friend, likes her back. so you can say, that if this was a battle, i lost. and it hurts. but i'm not gonna tell my friend that, i will let her be happy without having to think twice because of my feelings.
i've been hurt before, and the ache i feel right now is nothing compared to the hurt i felt before. but still, just like any pain, it stings. but again, just like any wound, it would heal, over time. this, too, will pass. and hey, what doesn't kill only makes you stronger, right?
Friday, 19 September 2008
the workaholic is going to uni
my summer went by fast. who knew 3 months would go by so quickly? and today was my last day at work.
just 3 months back, i remember telling my mum i wanted to work for the summer. and now, my summer is over. and so is my work. in 3 short months, i've learned to understand, respect and care for the people i work with.
when my friends and i talk about work, mostly my friends complain and though sometimes i do too, i love my work. i love getting paid and being able to buy stuff and spend my money i work hard for. i love being busy and being useful. i love my hard work being acknowledged. i love having the responsibilities and respect other people give me. the phonecalls, not so much, but i was getting used to it anyway. most of all, i enjoy the company. i enjoy the interaction with other people. this leads me to realise i enjoy being sociable.
i learned alot about immigration, which has quite alot to do with my dad's line of work. i learned how to discipline myself and work hard, to organise twice as hard, when work gets quite demanding. i learned from my mistakes as well.
all in all, i work hard. though it is tiring, i enjoy working hard. you may call me a workaholic coz i know i am one. i have worked twelve days straight. i like the fact that i get to spend money i earn, to not have to depend on my parents for once. i love work, and i can't wait to get back when i get the chance. for now, as i start a new chapter in my life by going to university, i'm bring with me the experience of a part time job and one of my most memorable and busiest summers ever.
to the bison team: i miss working with all of you. hope to see you guys soon. xx
just 3 months back, i remember telling my mum i wanted to work for the summer. and now, my summer is over. and so is my work. in 3 short months, i've learned to understand, respect and care for the people i work with.
when my friends and i talk about work, mostly my friends complain and though sometimes i do too, i love my work. i love getting paid and being able to buy stuff and spend my money i work hard for. i love being busy and being useful. i love my hard work being acknowledged. i love having the responsibilities and respect other people give me. the phonecalls, not so much, but i was getting used to it anyway. most of all, i enjoy the company. i enjoy the interaction with other people. this leads me to realise i enjoy being sociable.
i learned alot about immigration, which has quite alot to do with my dad's line of work. i learned how to discipline myself and work hard, to organise twice as hard, when work gets quite demanding. i learned from my mistakes as well.
all in all, i work hard. though it is tiring, i enjoy working hard. you may call me a workaholic coz i know i am one. i have worked twelve days straight. i like the fact that i get to spend money i earn, to not have to depend on my parents for once. i love work, and i can't wait to get back when i get the chance. for now, as i start a new chapter in my life by going to university, i'm bring with me the experience of a part time job and one of my most memorable and busiest summers ever.
to the bison team: i miss working with all of you. hope to see you guys soon. xx
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
Choices
Are difficult.
There are two choices: the first would be for me to let you know. And doing so, I'm risking a lot. I'm risking friendship. Never talking again? Not talking to me the same way? I don't think I can take that. OR, I let you know and I feel that there's a possibility that you won't reject me... just a feeling. I'm not confident about that one.
The second choice would be for me to never let you know. Doing so, I'll NEVER know how you'll react- that's my safe choice though. No risks. It would just be annoying if you were actually waiting for me to let you know. (Walang risk. Nakakainis lang kung hinihintay mo ako umamin diba?)
Haaay.
(got this from mia. i made nakaw na ha. pasenxa. hehe.)
Friday, 5 September 2008
What Would Gossip Girl Say About You?
You remind Gossip Girl of Serena.
"People don't tell you who you are, you tell them." - Serena van der Woodsen
Just like Serena, you're gorgeous, glamorous, and good at getting exactly what you want. You went a bit wild in your younger days, but lately, you've been acting a lot more mature. You're trying your best to live a scandal-free life, but that won't be as easy as it sounds.
If Gossip Girl blogged about you, she'd say:
Gossip girl here. There's a new face on the Upper East Side, and it's got us wondering -- Could S have a secret twin? Same sweet smile, same shady past... if our new friend has something to confess, Gossip Girl is here to listen. Whatever you're hiding, you might as well reveal it now, because the past has a way of coming back to haunt you. xoxo, Gossip Girl
http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/quiz_main.php
32% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.
"People don't tell you who you are, you tell them." - Serena van der Woodsen
Just like Serena, you're gorgeous, glamorous, and good at getting exactly what you want. You went a bit wild in your younger days, but lately, you've been acting a lot more mature. You're trying your best to live a scandal-free life, but that won't be as easy as it sounds.
If Gossip Girl blogged about you, she'd say:
Gossip girl here. There's a new face on the Upper East Side, and it's got us wondering -- Could S have a secret twin? Same sweet smile, same shady past... if our new friend has something to confess, Gossip Girl is here to listen. Whatever you're hiding, you might as well reveal it now, because the past has a way of coming back to haunt you. xoxo, Gossip Girl
http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/quiz_main.php
32% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
Monday, 18 August 2008
Professor Randy Pausch
Randy Pausch on Good Morning America, May 19, 2008
Randy Pausch died July 25th 2008 as a result of cancer spreading from his pancreas. He is a hero to me because he truly understood what it meant to be alive! With his fatal prognosis warning him he only had months to live, Randy inspired millions with his optimism about life. His family was lucky to have him. You touched a lot of lives on a truth that is just so very painful to face. It's good to see how others face the end of their lives so that we can do the same and put our lives into perspective.
Thank you Randy Pausch, for your short time on this planet you inspired us and left it better off than before you came to be.
Randy Pausch's; A Final Farewell
'Last Lecture' Prof Dies
Wednesday, 13 August 2008
crazy over EDWARD CULLEN
hehe, luckily, while browsing the site Deviantart, i found this note about edward cullen. YAY.
source: http://hatzeh.deviantart.com/art/Edward-35894674
I think,
At some point,
Everyone dreams of finding..
An Edward.
Someone whose name you call, or whisper.
And he's right there waiting.
Someone who hums a lullaby,
And holds you close, as you drift off.
Someone who seems to just glitter, in the Sunlight,
Whose eyes are often Topaz,
Warm,
And Reassuring.
Someone who takes you to dinner,
And ignores the pretty waitress.
Someone who follows you,
Watches you always,
Secretly, Just to be sure..
You're always okay.
Someone Romantic,
Yet has a good sense of humor.
Someone Ancient, Yet Young.
Who'll save your life, No matter what.
Who cries when you're injured.
Someone who cleans out even the deadliest wounds,
However impossibly hard it may be.
Someone to take you to your prom,
Despite your complaints,
Who teaches you to waltz,
As you stand on his feet.
Someone who just knows when it's time.
When forever really means forever.
And takes you away,
For years to come....
source: http://hatzeh.deviantart.com/art/Edward-35894674
At some point,
Everyone dreams of finding..
An Edward.
Someone whose name you call, or whisper.
And he's right there waiting.
Someone who hums a lullaby,
And holds you close, as you drift off.
Someone who seems to just glitter, in the Sunlight,
Whose eyes are often Topaz,
Warm,
And Reassuring.
Someone who takes you to dinner,
And ignores the pretty waitress.
Someone who follows you,
Watches you always,
Secretly, Just to be sure..
You're always okay.
Someone Romantic,
Yet has a good sense of humor.
Someone Ancient, Yet Young.
Who'll save your life, No matter what.
Who cries when you're injured.
Someone who cleans out even the deadliest wounds,
However impossibly hard it may be.
Someone to take you to your prom,
Despite your complaints,
Who teaches you to waltz,
As you stand on his feet.
Someone who just knows when it's time.
When forever really means forever.
And takes you away,
For years to come....
Thursday, 7 August 2008
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Monday, 4 August 2008
WARNING: Reading Twilight may cause an obsession.
Forget prince charming... i'm waiting for my EDWARD CULLEN ;)Because of Edward Cullen. i'm staying single until i find my vampire ;)
Because i read Twilight, i have unrealistic expectations in men. HAHA!
that's how i like my men.. cold dead and sparkly ;)
cut pages 73-381 out of new moon. jacob can go DIE. hahaha!
Edward dazzles me ;)
07-19-08.. what am i suppose to read now? :(
i get distracted by shin..... oohh.. Edward :)
breaking dawn.. give me the damn book before i hurt someone!
mortality is so overrated... BITE ME :p
308.. the number of pages without edward :(
save gas. ride a vampire ;)
EDWARD CULLEN. sexier than you since 1901 ;)
YES I KNOW HE'S FICTIONAL. YOUR POINT?
twilight... its not the book. its the GUY! :p
oh shit.. i've fallen in love with a fictional sparkly vampire :p
every guy should sparkle like edward cullen ;)
damn it stephenie meyer! now i'll never find a boyfried!
Edward is the new Romeo ;)EDWARD CULLEN. Raising the standards for future BOYFRIENDS ;)
Edward is my favorite color ;)
O.C.D. - obsessive CULLEN disorder :p
someday my
in my head.. edward is my boyfriend.. alice is my bestfriend and jacob wants me :p
(stole all this from bianca...thanks girl! but all so true.. couldn't have said it any better...:D)
Saturday, 2 August 2008
on being a friend and a girl
it's been said that:
It hurts to fall in love with a friend. You keep on hiding your feelings, avoiding it as much as you can until you cry your heart out...all out of fear of losing a friend and a love you never had.
and my friends have said to let emotions take control. they said that it's bad to not let emotions flow. but it's easier said than done. no, actually it's quite easy to let emotions take control. but the consequences, the effects, the outcomes and the changes that happen, all which are unpredictable is the scary worrying bit. the uncertainty of the unknown, the future. the world is full of endless possibilities and lots of what-if's.
i've longed so much for this feeling. to like someone new. to get over my ex-boyfriend. and it has happened. but who would have realised that i would lose that guy to my best friend. and they are two of my closest friends. and though to them, their closeness, seems just like they're just really close and comfortable with each other.
as a friend, i'll be glad to join in.
but as a girl, i see something else. as a girl, i see something that they both don't see yet. they may laugh at the idea or deny their true feelings. but there is something. and though i don't show, though i say it's just okay, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. and it hurts big time.
as a friend, i'd feel guilty for feeling this way. but in the end, i'm still just a girl. falling for a boy, who is one of her best friends, that maybe falling for his best friend, who is also her best friend.
complicated much? not really. i guess it's really simple. there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
so when one of my best friends is falling for the guy i like, who is also my best friend; which one should i be, a friend or a girl?
It hurts to fall in love with a friend. You keep on hiding your feelings, avoiding it as much as you can until you cry your heart out...all out of fear of losing a friend and a love you never had.
and my friends have said to let emotions take control. they said that it's bad to not let emotions flow. but it's easier said than done. no, actually it's quite easy to let emotions take control. but the consequences, the effects, the outcomes and the changes that happen, all which are unpredictable is the scary worrying bit. the uncertainty of the unknown, the future. the world is full of endless possibilities and lots of what-if's.
i've longed so much for this feeling. to like someone new. to get over my ex-boyfriend. and it has happened. but who would have realised that i would lose that guy to my best friend. and they are two of my closest friends. and though to them, their closeness, seems just like they're just really close and comfortable with each other.
as a friend, i'll be glad to join in.
but as a girl, i see something else. as a girl, i see something that they both don't see yet. they may laugh at the idea or deny their true feelings. but there is something. and though i don't show, though i say it's just okay, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. and it hurts big time.
as a friend, i'd feel guilty for feeling this way. but in the end, i'm still just a girl. falling for a boy, who is one of her best friends, that maybe falling for his best friend, who is also her best friend.
complicated much? not really. i guess it's really simple. there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
so when one of my best friends is falling for the guy i like, who is also my best friend; which one should i be, a friend or a girl?
Monday, 28 July 2008
what if ABS-CBN does a Pinoy version of Gossip Girl?
ABS-CBN will air the pinoy version of Gossip Girl soon.
FINAL CAST:
Serena van der Woodsen: KC Concepcion
Dan Humphry: John Loyd Cruz
Blair Waldorf: Anne Curtis
Nate Archibald: Sam Milby
Chuck Bass: Luis Manzano or Jake Cuenca
Jenny Humphry: Angelika Panganiban or Shaina Magdayao
Vanessa Abrams: Toni Gonzaga
Rufus Humphry: Richard Gomez
Lily van der Woodsen: Lucy Torres-Gomez
Alam mong mahal mo ko,
ekis o ekis o
gassip gerl aka chismosang babae
all borrowed from friend's multiply sites. :)
~~~~~
no way. no way. no way. no effin' way. no what-if's as well.
ok...this has gotta be just rumors. because "ekis o ekis o" will never work. puh-leeez.
let gossip girl stay the way it is.
FINAL CAST:
Serena van der Woodsen: KC Concepcion
Dan Humphry: John Loyd Cruz
Blair Waldorf: Anne Curtis
Nate Archibald: Sam Milby
Chuck Bass: Luis Manzano or Jake Cuenca
Jenny Humphry: Angelika Panganiban or Shaina Magdayao
Vanessa Abrams: Toni Gonzaga
Rufus Humphry: Richard Gomez
Lily van der Woodsen: Lucy Torres-Gomez
Alam mong mahal mo ko,
ekis o ekis o
gassip gerl aka chismosang babae
all borrowed from friend's multiply sites. :)
~~~~~
no way. no way. no way. no effin' way. no what-if's as well.
ok...this has gotta be just rumors. because "ekis o ekis o" will never work. puh-leeez.
let gossip girl stay the way it is.
Saturday, 26 July 2008
my addiction.
ad·dic·tion (-dkshn)
n.
1. Compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance: a drug used in the treatment of heroin addiction.
2. The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something.
n.
1. Compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance: a drug used in the treatment of heroin addiction.
2. The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something.
FRIENDS
"Friends is a sitcom about a group of friends in the Greenwich Village borough of Manhattan, New York City. It was originally broadcast from 1994 to 2004. It was created by David Crane and Marta Kauffman, and produced by Kevin S. Bright, Marta Kauffman and David Crane. The show has been broadcast in more than one hundred countries and still continues to attract good ratings for its episodes in syndication. The final episode of the show was watched by an estimated US audience of 52.5 million.[1] From the 10 years run, the show had won 6 Emmys, including one for Outstanding Comedy Series. It also received a Golden Globe, 2 SAG Awards, and other 56 various awards with 152 nominations."
"Rent is a rock opera, with music and lyrics by Jonathan Larson[1] inspired by Giacomo Puccini's opera La Bohème. It tells the story of a group of impoverished young artists and musicians struggling to survive and create in New York's Lower East Side in the thriving days of the Bohemian East Village, under the shadow of AIDS.""Rent is a 2005 film adaptation of the Broadway musical of the same name. It details the struggles of a group of young friends in the East Village area of New York City in the late-1980s, early-1990s. The film, directed by Chris Columbus, had six of the original Broadway cast members reprising their roles."
"Gossip Girl is an American television teen drama based on the popular novel series of the same name written by Cecily von Ziegesar. Gossip Girl revolves around the lives of socialite young adults growing up on New York's Upper East Side who attend elite academic institutions while dealing with sex, drugs, jealousy, and other teenage issues. Featuring an ensemble cast, the series begins by introducing Serena van der Woodsen (Blake Lively) and best friend Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester), as well as Blair's on-off boyfriend Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford), Nate's best friend Chuck Bass (Ed Westwick), Dan Humphrey (Penn Badgley), who dated Serena during most of the first season, Jenny Humphrey (Taylor Momsen), who become involved in the lives of the main characters despite being less inclined to merge with the upper-east-side crowd and Vanessa Abrams (Jessica Szohr) who is a best friend of Dan. The series is narrated by a seemingly omniscient character, "Gossip Girl" (voiced by Kristen Bell), who runs a blog about her fellow Upper East Siders — consequently stirring the pot and creating potential rivalries in this exclusive and vicious circle of friends.[1] The show was developed by Josh Schwartz and Stephanie Savage, who also serve as executive producers alongside Bob Levy and Leslie Morgenstein.[2] It is produced by Warner Bros. Television, College Hill Productions and Alloy Entertainment."
"Twilight is a young adult vampire novel written by author Stephenie Meyer, originally published in hardcover in 2005. It is the first book of the Twilight series, and introduces seventeen-year-old Isabella "Bella" Swan who moves from Phoenix, Arizona to Forks, Washington and finds her life in danger when she falls in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen."EDWARD CULLEN (Robert Pattison)
"Edward Cullen (born Edward Anthony Masen) is a fictional character in Stephenie Meyer's Twilight series. He is currently featured in the books Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse. He will also appear in the upcoming books, also by Stephenie Meyer, Breaking Dawn and Midnight Sun, the latter of which will be from Edward's point of view. The development of the Edward Cullen character was influenced by Gilbert Blythe, Fitzwilliam Darcy, and Edward Rochester– particularly the latter, who, like Edward Cullen, sees himself as a "monster".[1]"
source: wikipedia.org
Friday, 25 July 2008
monologue
"do you know how it feels like when you have been taken for granted? you have worked so hard in planning for your friend's surprise and not get appreciated at all for it. no thank you's, no job-well-dones's. if you demand it, it's like saying you're not doing this because it's for a friend. it's like you're tired, you're trailing behind, cleaning and it still goes unnoticed.. you, your efforts, all go unnoticed..
do you know how it feels when you realise your friends don't really listen to you? imagine trying to convince your friends to watch a movie you'd love to watch and even when the movie comes out, you're still trying to convince them, only to find out your friends have watched it together. without you. and now instead somehow they're discouraging you to watch because it's crap. you just want to get mad, to get upset that they watched it without you. but you can't because they would find it such a lame and stupid reason to get upst about. but the most disappointing realisation here is that it seems no one hears me saying it and constantly talking about it. or maybe my friends don't take me seriously. the question here is do my friends actually listen to what i say or do they just hear me speaking..
i often wondered... i really wished.. you know.. what if it was me who went back home for the summer, for two months instead of my friend. what if it was me? would everyone go through all the trouble to spend more time with me before i leave? would my leaving be something they wished to not happen? or should i ask, would my absence be felt? would it affect them that i'm not around to spend each day with them? my question is would they miss me as much as they are missing my friend right now? i'd really like to know...maybe i figured that i may come back and find that everything would be different.
i know it's wrong to doubt my friends because they are great. but why do i feel so alone? that even if we're together as a group, i feel so lonely. thinking about it, i don't have that one person, that best friend i can call just my own.
there's just so much emotion my poor little heart can handle. i need to getaway, runaway, as far as i can. i need to go somewhere where i can think. i need a fresh start. maybe i just need a long sleep. and who knows....
for now, i'm still okay. but watch out though, one day, you may think i'm still okay. you see me smiling, as a teardrop starts to fall.. and i'm dying a little inside."
the lights go dim.
but bright as light, you see a teardrop reach the floor. and two.. and..
do you know how it feels when you realise your friends don't really listen to you? imagine trying to convince your friends to watch a movie you'd love to watch and even when the movie comes out, you're still trying to convince them, only to find out your friends have watched it together. without you. and now instead somehow they're discouraging you to watch because it's crap. you just want to get mad, to get upset that they watched it without you. but you can't because they would find it such a lame and stupid reason to get upst about. but the most disappointing realisation here is that it seems no one hears me saying it and constantly talking about it. or maybe my friends don't take me seriously. the question here is do my friends actually listen to what i say or do they just hear me speaking..
i often wondered... i really wished.. you know.. what if it was me who went back home for the summer, for two months instead of my friend. what if it was me? would everyone go through all the trouble to spend more time with me before i leave? would my leaving be something they wished to not happen? or should i ask, would my absence be felt? would it affect them that i'm not around to spend each day with them? my question is would they miss me as much as they are missing my friend right now? i'd really like to know...maybe i figured that i may come back and find that everything would be different.
i know it's wrong to doubt my friends because they are great. but why do i feel so alone? that even if we're together as a group, i feel so lonely. thinking about it, i don't have that one person, that best friend i can call just my own.
there's just so much emotion my poor little heart can handle. i need to getaway, runaway, as far as i can. i need to go somewhere where i can think. i need a fresh start. maybe i just need a long sleep. and who knows....
for now, i'm still okay. but watch out though, one day, you may think i'm still okay. you see me smiling, as a teardrop starts to fall.. and i'm dying a little inside."
the lights go dim.
but bright as light, you see a teardrop reach the floor. and two.. and..
Friday, 18 July 2008
The Three Oddest Words
When I pronounce the word Future,
the first syllable already belongs to the past.
When I pronounce the word Silence,
I destroy it.
When I pronounce the word Nothing,
I make something no non-being can hold.
By Wislawa Szymborska
Nobel Prize Winner in Literature 1996
the first syllable already belongs to the past.
When I pronounce the word Silence,
I destroy it.
When I pronounce the word Nothing,
I make something no non-being can hold.
By Wislawa Szymborska
Nobel Prize Winner in Literature 1996
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