Born in Manila. Grew up in Singapore. Teenage years in Manila. Matured in London. Now back in Manila to discover new things about herself.
Tuesday, 23 September 2008
on being a friend and a girl (part 2)
the answer... well being a friend always comes easy to me, but being a girl is a tinnie bit complicated.
complicated much? hmm, not really. i guess it's really simple. coz there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
what i've realised is that i couldn't hurt my friend by making her feel guilty for liking the same guy i like. also, the guy who is also my friend, likes her back. so you can say, that if this was a battle, i lost. and it hurts. but i'm not gonna tell my friend that, i will let her be happy without having to think twice because of my feelings.
i've been hurt before, and the ache i feel right now is nothing compared to the hurt i felt before. but still, just like any pain, it stings. but again, just like any wound, it would heal, over time. this, too, will pass. and hey, what doesn't kill only makes you stronger, right?
Friday, 19 September 2008
the workaholic is going to uni
just 3 months back, i remember telling my mum i wanted to work for the summer. and now, my summer is over. and so is my work. in 3 short months, i've learned to understand, respect and care for the people i work with.
when my friends and i talk about work, mostly my friends complain and though sometimes i do too, i love my work. i love getting paid and being able to buy stuff and spend my money i work hard for. i love being busy and being useful. i love my hard work being acknowledged. i love having the responsibilities and respect other people give me. the phonecalls, not so much, but i was getting used to it anyway. most of all, i enjoy the company. i enjoy the interaction with other people. this leads me to realise i enjoy being sociable.
i learned alot about immigration, which has quite alot to do with my dad's line of work. i learned how to discipline myself and work hard, to organise twice as hard, when work gets quite demanding. i learned from my mistakes as well.
all in all, i work hard. though it is tiring, i enjoy working hard. you may call me a workaholic coz i know i am one. i have worked twelve days straight. i like the fact that i get to spend money i earn, to not have to depend on my parents for once. i love work, and i can't wait to get back when i get the chance. for now, as i start a new chapter in my life by going to university, i'm bring with me the experience of a part time job and one of my most memorable and busiest summers ever.
to the bison team: i miss working with all of you. hope to see you guys soon. xx
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
Choices
Are difficult.
There are two choices: the first would be for me to let you know. And doing so, I'm risking a lot. I'm risking friendship. Never talking again? Not talking to me the same way? I don't think I can take that. OR, I let you know and I feel that there's a possibility that you won't reject me... just a feeling. I'm not confident about that one.
The second choice would be for me to never let you know. Doing so, I'll NEVER know how you'll react- that's my safe choice though. No risks. It would just be annoying if you were actually waiting for me to let you know. (Walang risk. Nakakainis lang kung hinihintay mo ako umamin diba?)
Haaay.
(got this from mia. i made nakaw na ha. pasenxa. hehe.)
Friday, 5 September 2008
What Would Gossip Girl Say About You?

"People don't tell you who you are, you tell them." - Serena van der Woodsen
Just like Serena, you're gorgeous, glamorous, and good at getting exactly what you want. You went a bit wild in your younger days, but lately, you've been acting a lot more mature. You're trying your best to live a scandal-free life, but that won't be as easy as it sounds.
If Gossip Girl blogged about you, she'd say:
Gossip girl here. There's a new face on the Upper East Side, and it's got us wondering -- Could S have a secret twin? Same sweet smile, same shady past... if our new friend has something to confess, Gossip Girl is here to listen. Whatever you're hiding, you might as well reveal it now, because the past has a way of coming back to haunt you. xoxo, Gossip Girl
http://www.the-n.com/quizzes/quiz_main.php
32% of the people who took this quiz got the same evaluation.
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
Monday, 18 August 2008
Professor Randy Pausch
Randy Pausch on Good Morning America, May 19, 2008
Randy Pausch died July 25th 2008 as a result of cancer spreading from his pancreas. He is a hero to me because he truly understood what it meant to be alive! With his fatal prognosis warning him he only had months to live, Randy inspired millions with his optimism about life. His family was lucky to have him. You touched a lot of lives on a truth that is just so very painful to face. It's good to see how others face the end of their lives so that we can do the same and put our lives into perspective.
Thank you Randy Pausch, for your short time on this planet you inspired us and left it better off than before you came to be.
Randy Pausch's; A Final Farewell
'Last Lecture' Prof Dies
Wednesday, 13 August 2008
crazy over EDWARD CULLEN
source: http://hatzeh.deviantart.com/art/Edward-35894674

At some point,
Everyone dreams of finding..
An Edward.
Someone whose name you call, or whisper.
And he's right there waiting.
Someone who hums a lullaby,
And holds you close, as you drift off.
Someone who seems to just glitter, in the Sunlight,
Whose eyes are often Topaz,
Warm,
And Reassuring.
Someone who takes you to dinner,
And ignores the pretty waitress.
Someone who follows you,
Watches you always,
Secretly, Just to be sure..
You're always okay.
Someone Romantic,
Yet has a good sense of humor.
Someone Ancient, Yet Young.
Who'll save your life, No matter what.
Who cries when you're injured.
Someone who cleans out even the deadliest wounds,
However impossibly hard it may be.
Someone to take you to your prom,
Despite your complaints,
Who teaches you to waltz,
As you stand on his feet.
Someone who just knows when it's time.
When forever really means forever.
And takes you away,
For years to come....
Thursday, 7 August 2008
what type of girl are you?
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Monday, 4 August 2008
WARNING: Reading Twilight may cause an obsession.
Forget prince charming... i'm waiting for my EDWARD CULLEN ;)Because i read Twilight, i have unrealistic expectations in men. HAHA!
that's how i like my men.. cold dead and sparkly ;)
cut pages 73-381 out of new moon. jacob can go DIE. hahaha!
Edward dazzles me ;)
07-19-08.. what am i suppose to read now? :(
i get distracted by shin..... oohh.. Edward :)
breaking dawn.. give me the damn book before i hurt someone!
mortality is so overrated... BITE ME :p
308.. the number of pages without edward :(
save gas. ride a vampire ;)
EDWARD CULLEN. sexier than you since 1901 ;)
YES I KNOW HE'S FICTIONAL. YOUR POINT?
twilight... its not the book. its the GUY! :p
oh shit.. i've fallen in love with a fictional sparkly vampire :p
every guy should sparkle like edward cullen ;)
damn it stephenie meyer! now i'll never find a boyfried!
Edward is the new Romeo ;)EDWARD CULLEN. Raising the standards for future BOYFRIENDS ;)
Edward is my favorite color ;)
O.C.D. - obsessive CULLEN disorder :p
someday my
in my head.. edward is my boyfriend.. alice is my bestfriend and jacob wants me :p
Saturday, 2 August 2008
on being a friend and a girl
It hurts to fall in love with a friend. You keep on hiding your feelings, avoiding it as much as you can until you cry your heart out...all out of fear of losing a friend and a love you never had.
and my friends have said to let emotions take control. they said that it's bad to not let emotions flow. but it's easier said than done. no, actually it's quite easy to let emotions take control. but the consequences, the effects, the outcomes and the changes that happen, all which are unpredictable is the scary worrying bit. the uncertainty of the unknown, the future. the world is full of endless possibilities and lots of what-if's.
i've longed so much for this feeling. to like someone new. to get over my ex-boyfriend. and it has happened. but who would have realised that i would lose that guy to my best friend. and they are two of my closest friends. and though to them, their closeness, seems just like they're just really close and comfortable with each other.
as a friend, i'll be glad to join in.
but as a girl, i see something else. as a girl, i see something that they both don't see yet. they may laugh at the idea or deny their true feelings. but there is something. and though i don't show, though i say it's just okay, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. and it hurts big time.
as a friend, i'd feel guilty for feeling this way. but in the end, i'm still just a girl. falling for a boy, who is one of her best friends, that maybe falling for his best friend, who is also her best friend.
complicated much? not really. i guess it's really simple. there's this picture. of a boy and a girl. and i'm just not in it.
so when one of my best friends is falling for the guy i like, who is also my best friend; which one should i be, a friend or a girl?
Monday, 28 July 2008
what if ABS-CBN does a Pinoy version of Gossip Girl?
FINAL CAST:
Serena van der Woodsen: KC Concepcion
Dan Humphry: John Loyd Cruz
Blair Waldorf: Anne Curtis
Nate Archibald: Sam Milby
Chuck Bass: Luis Manzano or Jake Cuenca
Jenny Humphry: Angelika Panganiban or Shaina Magdayao
Vanessa Abrams: Toni Gonzaga
Rufus Humphry: Richard Gomez
Lily van der Woodsen: Lucy Torres-Gomez
Alam mong mahal mo ko,
ekis o ekis o
gassip gerl aka chismosang babae
all borrowed from friend's multiply sites. :)
~~~~~
no way. no way. no way. no effin' way. no what-if's as well.
ok...this has gotta be just rumors. because "ekis o ekis o" will never work. puh-leeez.
let gossip girl stay the way it is.
Saturday, 26 July 2008
my addiction.
n.
1. Compulsive physiological and psychological need for a habit-forming substance: a drug used in the treatment of heroin addiction.
2. The condition of being habitually or compulsively occupied with or or involved in something.
"Friends is a sitcom about a group of friends in the Greenwich Village borough of Manhattan, New York City. It was originally broadcast from 1994 to 2004. It was created by David Crane and Marta Kauffman, and produced by Kevin S. Bright, Marta Kauffman and David Crane. The show has been broadcast in more than one hundred countries and still continues to attract good ratings for its episodes in syndication. The final episode of the show was watched by an estimated US audience of 52.5 million.[1] From the 10 years run, the show had won 6 Emmys, including one for Outstanding Comedy Series. It also received a Golden Globe, 2 SAG Awards, and other 56 various awards with 152 nominations."
"Rent is a rock opera, with music and lyrics by Jonathan Larson[1] inspired by Giacomo Puccini's opera La Bohème. It tells the story of a group of impoverished young artists and musicians struggling to survive and create in New York's Lower East Side in the thriving days of the Bohemian East Village, under the shadow of AIDS.""Rent is a 2005 film adaptation of the Broadway musical of the same name. It details the struggles of a group of young friends in the East Village area of New York City in the late-1980s, early-1990s. The film, directed by Chris Columbus, had six of the original Broadway cast members reprising their roles."
"Gossip Girl is an American television teen drama based on the popular novel series of the same name written by Cecily von Ziegesar. Gossip Girl revolves around the lives of socialite young adults growing up on New York's Upper East Side who attend elite academic institutions while dealing with sex, drugs, jealousy, and other teenage issues. Featuring an ensemble cast, the series begins by introducing Serena van der Woodsen (Blake Lively) and best friend Blair Waldorf (Leighton Meester), as well as Blair's on-off boyfriend Nate Archibald (Chace Crawford), Nate's best friend Chuck Bass (Ed Westwick), Dan Humphrey (Penn Badgley), who dated Serena during most of the first season, Jenny Humphrey (Taylor Momsen), who become involved in the lives of the main characters despite being less inclined to merge with the upper-east-side crowd and Vanessa Abrams (Jessica Szohr) who is a best friend of Dan. The series is narrated by a seemingly omniscient character, "Gossip Girl" (voiced by Kristen Bell), who runs a blog about her fellow Upper East Siders — consequently stirring the pot and creating potential rivalries in this exclusive and vicious circle of friends.[1] The show was developed by Josh Schwartz and Stephanie Savage, who also serve as executive producers alongside Bob Levy and Leslie Morgenstein.[2] It is produced by Warner Bros. Television, College Hill Productions and Alloy Entertainment."
"Twilight is a young adult vampire novel written by author Stephenie Meyer, originally published in hardcover in 2005. It is the first book of the Twilight series, and introduces seventeen-year-old Isabella "Bella" Swan who moves from Phoenix, Arizona to Forks, Washington and finds her life in danger when she falls in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen."EDWARD CULLEN (Robert Pattison)

"Edward Cullen (born Edward Anthony Masen) is a fictional character in Stephenie Meyer's Twilight series. He is currently featured in the books Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse. He will also appear in the upcoming books, also by Stephenie Meyer, Breaking Dawn and Midnight Sun, the latter of which will be from Edward's point of view. The development of the Edward Cullen character was influenced by Gilbert Blythe, Fitzwilliam Darcy, and Edward Rochester– particularly the latter, who, like Edward Cullen, sees himself as a "monster".[1]"
source: wikipedia.org
Friday, 25 July 2008
monologue
do you know how it feels when you realise your friends don't really listen to you? imagine trying to convince your friends to watch a movie you'd love to watch and even when the movie comes out, you're still trying to convince them, only to find out your friends have watched it together. without you. and now instead somehow they're discouraging you to watch because it's crap. you just want to get mad, to get upset that they watched it without you. but you can't because they would find it such a lame and stupid reason to get upst about. but the most disappointing realisation here is that it seems no one hears me saying it and constantly talking about it. or maybe my friends don't take me seriously. the question here is do my friends actually listen to what i say or do they just hear me speaking..
i often wondered... i really wished.. you know.. what if it was me who went back home for the summer, for two months instead of my friend. what if it was me? would everyone go through all the trouble to spend more time with me before i leave? would my leaving be something they wished to not happen? or should i ask, would my absence be felt? would it affect them that i'm not around to spend each day with them? my question is would they miss me as much as they are missing my friend right now? i'd really like to know...maybe i figured that i may come back and find that everything would be different.
i know it's wrong to doubt my friends because they are great. but why do i feel so alone? that even if we're together as a group, i feel so lonely. thinking about it, i don't have that one person, that best friend i can call just my own.
there's just so much emotion my poor little heart can handle. i need to getaway, runaway, as far as i can. i need to go somewhere where i can think. i need a fresh start. maybe i just need a long sleep. and who knows....
for now, i'm still okay. but watch out though, one day, you may think i'm still okay. you see me smiling, as a teardrop starts to fall.. and i'm dying a little inside."
the lights go dim.
but bright as light, you see a teardrop reach the floor. and two.. and..
Friday, 18 July 2008
The Three Oddest Words
the first syllable already belongs to the past.
When I pronounce the word Silence,
I destroy it.
When I pronounce the word Nothing,
I make something no non-being can hold.
By Wislawa Szymborska
Nobel Prize Winner in Literature 1996
Thursday, 17 July 2008
tears
They are not the mark of weakness, but of power.
They speak more eloquently than 10,000 tongues.
They are the messengers of
overwhelming grief,
of deep contrition,
and of unspeakable love.
-Washington Irving
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
random updates (aka rants)
may-june.
exams. my finals. yes, i have been studying for it. i tried my best and hopefully get the grades that i need. please please please. i try to always go to college to study. this is because when i am at home, i usually end up online. and not really doing much revision.
other stuff also came up during may and june. well there was envision and the pledges. it involved alot of planning and getting things ready for it. most of my friends were busy with their exams and other stuff that i had to do most of it. although i did have some help.
there was also a friend of mine leaving to go back home for the summer. we had to celebrate her 18th birthday in advance and i had to do a little of the planning. well, more than a little. i ended up doing most of the planning the day before the surprise. and it was quite stressful. but everything went well. my friend was definitely surprised. but somehow you sometimes want to feel some gratitude and some recognition for all your hard work. i mean i know i do all this because i consider her one of my best friends. so a simple 'thank you' or 'good job' would make everything so worth it. because you don't want to feel like you're just being taken for granted. i love my friends and i would do anything for them. i just hope they realise that.
i also got to travel. we went to wales for one weekend because of a philippine independence day celebration. and that felt good to go out of town and just relax. i just finished my exams around that time. and going to wales meant that it was indeed vacation time. meaning summer! woohoo! i also got to go to one of my dream destinations which is PARIS! yes, you read it right, Paris, France. and like omg?! well i guess you can see how happy i was about it. until now. we went there for my sister's 18th birthday, just overnight for the weekend. and although alot of time was wasted for travel, it was still so nice to break-away from exams and just hang out with my family. i'm definitely going back there. we were also to go to ireland but my parents went without us instead because it was expensive. oh well.
i finally got work. yes, i am working for the summer, part time and i get paid. although i'm not sure when or how, it's still cool. i would get to learn new things and get paid for it. plus it's good experience to put on my cv.
one of the biggest disappointments i have this summer is that i don't get to go home to the philippines. yes, i'm staying in london for the summer. damn. i'm sure my friends back home are as disappointed as i am. i feel bad that they have so much happening now in their lives right now and i don't get to be a witness to any of it.
two weeks ago, we went to the airport to see my friend off. and when she was boarding in and she was waving goodbye, i didn't see a friend leaving. because i'm sure she's coming back. instead, i saw someone going back home to her country to be with friends and family she hasn't seen for two years. and i badly wished it was me. oh how i wanted it to be me. i so wanted to go back home. how i wish it was me who was going home to the philippines. maybe it was the only way i could find out how much i mattered to my friends. would they spend as much time with me like they did for my other friend who did go home? i want to know whether they would miss me as much. but i guess i will never know.
as you can realise, most of this entry contains my disappointments and the sentiments. there is only so much my poor little heart can carry and try to let go off or hope that it would fade. but to end on a bright note, it's just the beginning the july.. and my summer has yet to take out and turn out to be the best summer ever.
i still remember my promise to my best friend that we will make this year our year. and i guess that's what i'll just do.
Sunday, 13 July 2008
i'm singing in the rain..

Plotline:
Glorious classic film musical. 1927: Don Lockwood and Lina Lamont are the darlings of the silent silver screen. Offscreen, Don, aided by his happy-go-lucky friend and piano accompanist, Cosmo Brown, has to dodge Lina's romantic overtures, especially when he falls for chorus girl Kathy Selden. With the advent of sound in motion pictures, it is decided to turn Don and Lina's new film into a "talkie" and a musical at that. The only problem is Lina's voice, which mere words cannot describe. Thus, Kathy is brought on to dub her speaking and singing voice in secret, and Don's on top of the world. But then Lina finds out...
i can just watch this movie over and over again. my sister can sing to all the songs in this movie. and secretly, so can i.
Lina Lamont is funny being so in over her head. and she definitely talks funny as well. Don Lockwood and Kelly Seldon are such a cute pair. Cosmo Brown is such a cute friend, make 'em laugh. they are amazing at tap dancing. they did a great tap duet. can u spell talent? wow.. i wish they made more movie musicals like this nowadays.
The Songs:
Singing in the Rain
Good Morning
Diction/Moses
Trailer
Memorable Quotes:
Lina Lamont (in her high pitched funny voice..)
"Cayyyn't"
"Well, I can't make love to a bush!"
"What do they think I am? Dumb or something? Why, I make more money than - than - than Calvin Coolidge! Put together!"
"People"? I ain't "people." I am a - "a shimmering, glowing star in the cinema firmament."
"If we bring a little joy into your humdrum lives, it makes us feel as though our hard work ain't been in vain for nothin'. Bless you all."
Cosmo Brown
"Short people have long faces, and long people have short faces. Big people have little humor, and little people have no humor at all."
"What's the first thing an actor learns? "The show must go on!' Come rain, come shine, come snow, come sleet, the show MUST go on!"
"Gee, I'm glad you turned up, we've been looking inside every cake in town"
Don Lockwood
"Well, we movie stars get the glory. I guess we have to take the little heartaches that go with it. People think we lead lives of glamour and romance, but we're really lonely - terribly lonely. "
"Moses supposes his toeses are roses,
but Moses supposes erroneously.
Moses he knowses his toeses aren't roses
as Moses supposes his toeses to be."
"Moses suposes his toeses are roses
But Moses supposes erroneously
A Rose is a rose
A Nose is a nose
A Toese is a toese
Hupidubidu! (ehehehehe)"
"Repeat after me - Tah, Tey, Tee, Toe, Too."...."Tah, Tey, Tye, Tow, Tyo"
Wednesday, 9 July 2008
scribbles vol.2
the more i know you
the deeper i fall
i should stay away, distance myself
but then, you turn to be always there
you make me smile
you make me laugh
you make me feel good
about myself, life and right now
but i'm scared, really
why does this happen now
i've long waited for something like this
and it's you who just can't stay for long
now i don't want this
but it's too late to runaway now
if only i can switch off
everytime you're around
but i know i just can't
eventhough i wish i really could
to stop my heart from crying (or breaking)
knowing i'll just be a good friend to you
vi.
sometimes i want to distance myself
i'd convince myself to stay away
however whenever i see you
it's your smile that greets me
i just want you near
i want you to be sitting beside me.
you're with your friends
i can't stop but stare and smile.
i know i'm really crazy
i shouldn't be feeling this way
let me pretend, nothing has happened
i'd fake a smile as if everything's alright
i'll try and control myself, stop myself
before this feeling takes over me.
01.10
i want to pretend it's not there
i could act like it's not real
i'll just put things or feelings aside
i know i've done this before
but it never gets easier
maybe i'm just getting ahead of myself
maybe i'm really scared of getting hurt
maybe, just maybe
this was nothing but a dream
04.43
i always wanted to move on
from a past that was too painful
now i see something in you, about you
that gives me that strange feeling again
i never thought that it would be you
others would always joke
and i would just laugh along
but now, why does it hurt inside
you made me smile
it got me all inspired
but things changed overnight
somehow i was just so bothered
unsure of how or why i'm feeling this way
maybe because it seemed impossible
you and me can never happen
oh why can't everything just go back
to the ways things were before
maybe i'll just pretend this is nothing
maybe i'll convince myself this is scary
maybe i'll hide or runaway from you
maybe i can deny that this is true
or maybe i'll lie and fake a smile
when inside, my heart is being torn apart
yes, i'll fake a smile
and pretend i'm okay
when you smile at me
and sit right next to me
yes, i'll be okay.
vii.
i should be sleeping
instead i'm awake
i've been tossing and turning
but now it's too late
my alarm clock's about to sound
hears its countdown
tick tock tick tock
maybe i'll just turn it off
i've been thinking, i've been reading
which is probably why i just can't sleep
viii.
my heart
emotion, feelings
take chances
risk everything
just let it flow
let it just take control
my brain
my mind, thinking
to pretend and lie
deny everything
fake a smile or laugh
you're just gonna get hurt
which one's stronger?
which one should you listen to?
Wednesday, 2 July 2008
let's google it again.
2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
Katrina looks like a goddess of love.
3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search:
Katrina goes green.
6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:
Katrina loves theatre.
7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
Katrina eats gulf coast.
8: Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:
Katrina has a theory.
9: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
Katrina wants more challenging roles.
10: Type in "[your name] knows" in Google search:
Katrina knows where she went wrong..
11: Type in "[your name] said" in Google search:
Katrina said mum mum nan nan dada.
Tuesday, 1 July 2008
let's google it
ok, this is my entry for now, since i still have a lack of inspiration to write anything.. i still have my scribbles and doodles.. but that would be for some other time.. i decided to do "Anna" instead of "Anakat" since anakat is a rare name.. and most of the stuff that comes up in google is from my blogs.. maybe i'll do a "Katrina".. maybe tomorrow.. for now, i took the simple stuff about anna.. it doesn't say much.. but it means alot, it goes deep.. i'll explain later..
1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
Anna needs...content.
2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
Anna, looks like your next!
3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
Anna does Paris.
4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
Anna hates bananas.
5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search:
Anna goes west.
6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:
Anna loves her little Honda.
7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
Anna eats cornflakes with sugar.
8: Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:
Anna has gone.
9: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
Anna wants to break free.
10: Type in "[your name] knows" in Google search
Anna knows how to make us laugh.
11: Type in "[your name] said" in Google search
Anna said she felt very grumpy and that she "must be worrying about something".
12: Type in "[your name] ended" in Google search
Anna ended up falling asleep on the floor in the loungeroom.
