last time i talked about surprises, it was about being shocked. but it was the good kind of surprise thta makes u smile. i forgot that somehow that there was the good kind and bad kind. well, not really the bad kind but rather, the sad kind of surprise. it's the kind of surprise that gets us to stop and look back. change. inevitable and unstoppable. some for the worse, but mostly hopefully for the better. and when you do get the sad kind of surprise, don't fret. you're never alone. it would definitely be nice to have a shoulder to lean on or a simple hug to be your comfort.
15.53
life
i'm not sure what it is
simple yet complex
whole yet broken
something's missing
something's wrong
i look for answers
i try to find some meaning
i search, i ask, i question
and i pray.
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
Saturday, 5 April 2008
there's still hope
there's still hope that i get to watch rent on broadway. it was said that they were suppose to be closing on june 1 of this year. but now they extended it. and now it's closing on september 7. i want to watch it live. anyone pls buy me a ticket. pls.. there's also hope that i get to watch two of the original cast perform. (and they're both my favorite.) i hope i get to watch adam pascal and anthony rapp in the musical rent when they perform on the tour beginning januray of 2009. waaaa.. pls.... anyone?
there's still hope that i can get into a course at university that would be really a good degree. (even if it's only a certificate really. hehe) there's still hope that maybe all the trouble and heartache i have to go through for my future would really pay off.
there' still hope that i do get to go home to the Philippines this year. everytime my parents talk about one month in July, it gives hope that they would really let me stay a month. i want to. i need to. fingers crossed.
there's still hope - lots of it actually. there's hope that this year, 2008, is indeed my year. the year that hopefully all my dreams come true. and even if they don't, i know i would have tried. right, besh?
there's still hope. and maybe just like love, it's actually all around. and believe that tomorrow's definitely gonna be better than today.
there's still hope that i can get into a course at university that would be really a good degree. (even if it's only a certificate really. hehe) there's still hope that maybe all the trouble and heartache i have to go through for my future would really pay off.
there' still hope that i do get to go home to the Philippines this year. everytime my parents talk about one month in July, it gives hope that they would really let me stay a month. i want to. i need to. fingers crossed.
there's still hope - lots of it actually. there's hope that this year, 2008, is indeed my year. the year that hopefully all my dreams come true. and even if they don't, i know i would have tried. right, besh?
there's still hope. and maybe just like love, it's actually all around. and believe that tomorrow's definitely gonna be better than today.
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
quotable quotes from the movies 1
this comes because lately i have been into a movie marathon. and this is just a few of my favorite movie lines ever. maybe you can tell me which movies these come from. and definitely expect more to come.
"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough."
"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her."
"Mommy! My prince has finally found me!"
"Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Lead me, save me from my solitude. Say you'll want me with you here beside you. Anywhere you go, let me go too. Christine, that's all I ask of..."
"Every year I would wish if that I was good enough you would come and find me."
"At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place. But believe us when we say there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events, may in fact, be the first steps of a journey."
"If you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just passes you by."
"The rumba is the vertical expression of a horizontal wish. You have to hold her, like the skin on her thigh is your reason for living. Let her go, like your heart's being ripped from your chest. Throw her back, like you're going to have your way with her right here on the dance floor. And then finish, like she's ruined you for life."
"Sometimes, it's better for two people to break-up so they can grow. 'Cause it takes grown-ups to make a relationship work."
"I couldn't escape them. All the little things left unsaid, i was drowning in them. Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there."
"I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it."
"…I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and…how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you bring their food, and clear their tables and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive. And the fact that I get it makes me feel good, about me."
"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
"It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic."
"Tell her that you love her. You've got nothing to lose, and you'll always regret it if you don't."
"I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough."
"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her."
"Mommy! My prince has finally found me!"
"Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime. Lead me, save me from my solitude. Say you'll want me with you here beside you. Anywhere you go, let me go too. Christine, that's all I ask of..."
"Every year I would wish if that I was good enough you would come and find me."
"At times the world can seem an unfriendly and sinister place. But believe us when we say there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. And what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events, may in fact, be the first steps of a journey."
"If you love someone you say it, you say it right then, out loud. Otherwise the moment just passes you by."
"The rumba is the vertical expression of a horizontal wish. You have to hold her, like the skin on her thigh is your reason for living. Let her go, like your heart's being ripped from your chest. Throw her back, like you're going to have your way with her right here on the dance floor. And then finish, like she's ruined you for life."
"Sometimes, it's better for two people to break-up so they can grow. 'Cause it takes grown-ups to make a relationship work."
"I couldn't escape them. All the little things left unsaid, i was drowning in them. Suddenly, I knew what I had to do. Love isn't about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is about airplanes pulling banners over stadiums, proposals on jumbo-trons, giant words in sky writing. Love is about going that extra mile even if it hurts, letting it all hang out there. Love is about finding courage inside of you that you didn't even know was there."
"I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it."
"…I might be the only one who appreciates how amazing you are in every single thing that you do, and…how you say what you mean, and how you almost always mean something that's all about being straight and good. I think most people miss that about you, and I watch them, wondering how they can watch you bring their food, and clear their tables and never get that they just met the greatest woman alive. And the fact that I get it makes me feel good, about me."
"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
"It was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic."
"Tell her that you love her. You've got nothing to lose, and you'll always regret it if you don't."
Sunday, 23 March 2008
story long overdue with a dream slowly fading
26.02.08 23:59
tick tock tick tock. and now it's midnight. and it only means one thing.
year after year, on this same date, she would always looks back to realize what has happened and what has changed. and obviously, alot has definitely changed. back then, life was simplier. she was still in her hometown. now she is in a foreign land chasing her dreams. other people had to be left behind in order for this change in her life. there were things she had to put aside and sadly, he was one of them.
four years. amazingly it has been four years. who knew four years would pass by so fast? four years of caring for someone else. no ordinary friend but still not as important as a loved one. care is now the emotion that used to be love. yes, it's no longer love. she's sure of that. or atleast for now coz there's only one way to be sure.
one of the reasons she holds on to the memories so tight is because she believes that memories are the only things that don't change when everything does. and at this moment, she realizes how different she is as well, how she has changed, how she has matured, how she has grown up. no longer the little girl who would cry easily because of an overflow of her emotions. maybe it's about time too that she stop thinking about this every year.
27.02.08 08:35
she woke up with a strange feeling. maybe it's because she had a strange dream. she hasn't had a dream about him for the longest time now. she used to dream about him alot. she could see his face so clearly and his every touch felt so real to her. every rush of emotion was so real that if she actually said 'pinch me', she might wake up. but there's a huge difference, she can't really see his face. she knows it's him but his face has become such a blur. everytime she tries to remember the dream, she finds it hard to see his face. it's no longer the same anymore. she can't feel him. in fact, she doesn't feel anything knowing that he was near in her dream.
maybe the feelings are no longer there. with time, distance and space, it actually has disappeared. (or possibly just really weakened.) the feeling of wanting, of longing. the feeling of hurting and bitterness. the feeling of being in love and of love itself. to be honest, she feels like they have become nothing else but strangers.
when one lights a candle, what will be left is wax. when one burns paper, all that is left is ashes. but for the fire in her heart brought about by the emotion of love, what's left for her is the genuine feeling of care and concern. she has learned that it's not totally possible to forget someone who has been a significant part of her life. and to her, he'll always be migs. whether or not he has shown that part of him to someone else, she'll probably never know but still would like to thank him for the chance of meeting him. because of that, he'll always be migs to her. and she'll always be his agatha. she still cares and probably always will, eventhough she might choose not to show it. and for what it's worth, she'll always be thinking of him.
Friday, 21 March 2008
you decide
CONFLICT:
the one you love or the one who loves you?
COMPARISON:
* the one you love will keep you hoping but the one who loves you will offer you everything
* the one you love can give you a moment but the one who loves you can give you eternity
* the one you love can ease your pain yet the one who loves you can take the pain & own it instead, and
* the one you love could break your heart & the one who loves you will do anything to rebuild it..
CHOICE:
Its up to you.
the one you love or the one who loves you?
COMPARISON:
* the one you love will keep you hoping but the one who loves you will offer you everything
* the one you love can give you a moment but the one who loves you can give you eternity
* the one you love can ease your pain yet the one who loves you can take the pain & own it instead, and
* the one you love could break your heart & the one who loves you will do anything to rebuild it..
CHOICE:
Its up to you.
tell me what you think.
Monday, 17 March 2008
enjoying life's surprises
life can really be full of surprises. who knows what it can give to you? who knows what you find out? and who knows where you'll be? right?
surprises are nice. they're suppose to make you happy. and sometimes there's also tears of joys. like surprise birthday parties, surprise guests, surprise gifts, etc. there could also be a surprising twist of events between people's lives. like falling for your best friend's girlfriend or falling for your best friend. there could be surprising connections or something called like six degrees of separation. i really like life's little surprises. they get me shocked and dazed. and also makes me smile and laugh at the thought. that's what happened recently and thus, this entry. who really knows what can happen? you just never know. i guess that's the beauty of life. tomorrow's always a mystery.
again, like i said, life can truly be full of surprises. and that's the kind of things that i would always look forward to. that's the kind of things i love. so keep your eyes open and enjoy the moment.
surprises are nice. they're suppose to make you happy. and sometimes there's also tears of joys. like surprise birthday parties, surprise guests, surprise gifts, etc. there could also be a surprising twist of events between people's lives. like falling for your best friend's girlfriend or falling for your best friend. there could be surprising connections or something called like six degrees of separation. i really like life's little surprises. they get me shocked and dazed. and also makes me smile and laugh at the thought. that's what happened recently and thus, this entry. who really knows what can happen? you just never know. i guess that's the beauty of life. tomorrow's always a mystery.
again, like i said, life can truly be full of surprises. and that's the kind of things that i would always look forward to. that's the kind of things i love. so keep your eyes open and enjoy the moment.
Friday, 14 March 2008
i miss being six
i miss being six. i miss being a kid. i miss being young(-er. i miss being younger.).
why?
because when i was six, all that mattered was playing and having fun. ignorance and innocence about life was still there. it was the time you could play house with a boy without having to think the boy will still be there tomorrow to play house again. of course, you could easily find someone else to play house with and obviously there was no emotional attachment. it was the time you could sit alone at home having tea with all our stuff toys and not realize about how lonely you are or not think that you are such a loser playing only with toys. so what, you are still having fun, right? it was the time you could always depend on mommy or daddy to give you what you wanted. nothing was to be earned and all was just to be given to you. life was easy. just like what was said in high school musical, "Do you remember in kindergarten,how you'd meet a kid, and know nothing about them, then 10 seconds later you'd be playing like you were best friends, because you didn't have to be anyone but yourself?" simple.
but now, there are more things that matter: school, work, family, friends, relationships, even money. ignorance and innocence are slowly losing their meanings. boys are no longer just playmates. you cry, you hurt, you look for them. emotions now get in the way. friendship is no longer easy to gain as well. there are words such as stereotypes or status quo in which you have to fit in or belong to. i'm at an age where sooner or later, i would be living out on my own. earning money to pay for everything - from living expenses to food. independence steps in and you are now the sole person in control of your life. no longer the simple, easy, carefree life you onced have. the price for growing up.
right now, i'm really busy with college work - all those presentations, projects and even upcoming exams. i try my very best to find time for myself - to relax and have fun. today, i had a wonderful time with my friends. today, i forget everything else. for moments, i would just go crazy and wild. it didn't matter to me if i was making a complete fool of myself but i knew i was in good company that wouldn't be thinking that way. i could dance and sing like a drunk idiot. i could pretend to be singing,with a serving spoon in the kitchen while cleaning up, to a song that i totally love but do not know all the lyrics except the chorus. i could have balloons fights with my friends as if we were at war and can't stop myself from not laughing out so loud. i could sing all this ridiculously cute and funny songs and know all the lyrics. i didn't have anything else on my mind except the fact that i was having so much fun.
i want more days like that. i want a day where i could just escape my everyday life and nothing else would matter but for me to have fun and be happy. i want my happy place. something that actually exist, not something that i close my eyes to see. i want a day where i don't pretend to be all grown up.
why?
because when i was six, all that mattered was playing and having fun. ignorance and innocence about life was still there. it was the time you could play house with a boy without having to think the boy will still be there tomorrow to play house again. of course, you could easily find someone else to play house with and obviously there was no emotional attachment. it was the time you could sit alone at home having tea with all our stuff toys and not realize about how lonely you are or not think that you are such a loser playing only with toys. so what, you are still having fun, right? it was the time you could always depend on mommy or daddy to give you what you wanted. nothing was to be earned and all was just to be given to you. life was easy. just like what was said in high school musical, "Do you remember in kindergarten,how you'd meet a kid, and know nothing about them, then 10 seconds later you'd be playing like you were best friends, because you didn't have to be anyone but yourself?" simple.
but now, there are more things that matter: school, work, family, friends, relationships, even money. ignorance and innocence are slowly losing their meanings. boys are no longer just playmates. you cry, you hurt, you look for them. emotions now get in the way. friendship is no longer easy to gain as well. there are words such as stereotypes or status quo in which you have to fit in or belong to. i'm at an age where sooner or later, i would be living out on my own. earning money to pay for everything - from living expenses to food. independence steps in and you are now the sole person in control of your life. no longer the simple, easy, carefree life you onced have. the price for growing up.
right now, i'm really busy with college work - all those presentations, projects and even upcoming exams. i try my very best to find time for myself - to relax and have fun. today, i had a wonderful time with my friends. today, i forget everything else. for moments, i would just go crazy and wild. it didn't matter to me if i was making a complete fool of myself but i knew i was in good company that wouldn't be thinking that way. i could dance and sing like a drunk idiot. i could pretend to be singing,with a serving spoon in the kitchen while cleaning up, to a song that i totally love but do not know all the lyrics except the chorus. i could have balloons fights with my friends as if we were at war and can't stop myself from not laughing out so loud. i could sing all this ridiculously cute and funny songs and know all the lyrics. i didn't have anything else on my mind except the fact that i was having so much fun.
i want more days like that. i want a day where i could just escape my everyday life and nothing else would matter but for me to have fun and be happy. i want my happy place. something that actually exist, not something that i close my eyes to see. i want a day where i don't pretend to be all grown up.
Tuesday, 11 March 2008
the lighter side of politics
this entry just comes because of what is happening back home. a people power 2? actually, not 2, it's more like people power 4? i'm not sure, i lost count. however, there's just really alot of confusion happening back home. it's no laughing matter because this could change lives. whatever happens could affect the future of the philippines. i too want to make a difference. i want to make a stand, to fight for change. and we know change doesn't happen overnight. but i stand up for truth. they say the truth will set you free. but they also said the truth hurts. and when you're reach rock bottom, there's no other way but up. anyway, i don't want to write something too serious because obviously you can get that from all the news channels. now, i just wanna to write something positive. i want to remember that there are things far more important in this life than all these dirty politics.
one amazing thing out of this is you can really see how talented and creative filipinos are. from movie posters to tshirts to videos to games. watch below.
by the way, about the comic strip, i found it funny and cute. and there is actually two huge things you can learn from it.
Who's knowledge did not go to college
What do common Filipinos actually understand of the words and phrases frequently spoken in the anomalous ZTE Broadband deal. Mark Logan of ABS-CBN investigates by asking people to simply read, pronounce and explain the meaning of the words "kickback", "commission", "greed" and "hamburger", phrases like "ZTE scandal", "Broadband deal" and "moderate your greed". The results were absolutely alarming as well as hilarious. It exposes the fact that most Filipinos have a vague idea of the details of our nation's political turmoil.
"Who's knowledge did not go to college" is the catch phrase popularized by Ann Robinson, host of the game show "The Weakest Link".
disclaimer: i got this all from youtube. i was watching the news one day with my mom and this came on. i found it funny. but on another note, it's sad. to realize how much other people really understand about this. good or bad? i'd have to say, good and bad. but i like the saying, "moderate your greed." so true. haha.
"Who's knowledge did not go to college" is the catch phrase popularized by Ann Robinson, host of the game show "The Weakest Link".
disclaimer: i got this all from youtube. i was watching the news one day with my mom and this came on. i found it funny. but on another note, it's sad. to realize how much other people really understand about this. good or bad? i'd have to say, good and bad. but i like the saying, "moderate your greed." so true. haha.
Sunday, 9 March 2008
untitled, unfinished and uninspired
one day in the life of mine i got this sudden inspiration (and smile on my face) to write something about how i was sort of feeling and what was on my mind. and here goes.
love hasn't always gone my way before
everytime i fall, i just get hurt even more
tears were always shed for someone who couldn't stay
so i put my heart aside and left love for some other day
maybe love isn't just for me
i gave up searching for something i couldn't see
i wanted something no one could give
everytime i was scared, i would just leave
i'm a hopeless romantic who believed in fairytales
but now i'm one of those who has given up on true love
no more daydreaming
no more wishing on stars
but one day all that changed
for i started believing again
thanks to that unforgettable summer
i wasn't....
so yeah, uhm that's pretty much where my inspiration got lost or got cut. turns out the inspiration i had for this, sort of had a time limit. i just couldn't finish it. until now. but maybe, just maybe if i stare at it long enough, it would finish itself. if not, i'll just resort to taking a long walk and reflect. long walks do me good.
love hasn't always gone my way before
everytime i fall, i just get hurt even more
tears were always shed for someone who couldn't stay
so i put my heart aside and left love for some other day
maybe love isn't just for me
i gave up searching for something i couldn't see
i wanted something no one could give
everytime i was scared, i would just leave
i'm a hopeless romantic who believed in fairytales
but now i'm one of those who has given up on true love
no more daydreaming
no more wishing on stars
but one day all that changed
for i started believing again
thanks to that unforgettable summer
i wasn't....
so yeah, uhm that's pretty much where my inspiration got lost or got cut. turns out the inspiration i had for this, sort of had a time limit. i just couldn't finish it. until now. but maybe, just maybe if i stare at it long enough, it would finish itself. if not, i'll just resort to taking a long walk and reflect. long walks do me good.
Thursday, 6 March 2008
back to normal. almost.
friends. finally, we're now complete. my friend just came back from vietnam and we missed her. she was gone for a month. and who knew a month flew by that fast. now i think it was only like yesterday, i was talking to her on the phone while she was at the airport, about to board the plane. and now, it was as if she never left at all.
results. yes, the dreaded day has arrived. our results for our january exams arrived today. and well, there are the good and the bad. there were shockers and the expected and the uhm, the okay grades. finding out the results was heart-stopping in a way that i didn't want to find out what they were and at the same time, i was so curious. today, i would just let everything sink in and then tomorrow i would something about it.
responsibility. i miss having alot of responsibilities to do at school. i miss being busy. and i miss being in charge. i like the feeling and you are able to do something to be proud of or something that is worth all that trouble. i like the satisfaction of a job well done.
chances. take chances and take risks and making the first step to change. my best friend and i keep telling each other that 2008 is our year, 2008 is the year we make all our dreams come true. and i wanna make it come true. i wanna fulfill this statement. i want to promise that to myself. but i don't want to get disappointed in the end. however for now, slowly and surely, i would take one step at a time. and take chances i have never done before.
so looks like almost everything is back to normal. no more procrastinating. no more time wasted. some days i still can't believe it's march already. and slowly, my life is starting to pick up. people around me and things are happening so fast that i feel i might get left behind. so i guess i better start running now.
results. yes, the dreaded day has arrived. our results for our january exams arrived today. and well, there are the good and the bad. there were shockers and the expected and the uhm, the okay grades. finding out the results was heart-stopping in a way that i didn't want to find out what they were and at the same time, i was so curious. today, i would just let everything sink in and then tomorrow i would something about it.
responsibility. i miss having alot of responsibilities to do at school. i miss being busy. and i miss being in charge. i like the feeling and you are able to do something to be proud of or something that is worth all that trouble. i like the satisfaction of a job well done.
chances. take chances and take risks and making the first step to change. my best friend and i keep telling each other that 2008 is our year, 2008 is the year we make all our dreams come true. and i wanna make it come true. i wanna fulfill this statement. i want to promise that to myself. but i don't want to get disappointed in the end. however for now, slowly and surely, i would take one step at a time. and take chances i have never done before.
so looks like almost everything is back to normal. no more procrastinating. no more time wasted. some days i still can't believe it's march already. and slowly, my life is starting to pick up. people around me and things are happening so fast that i feel i might get left behind. so i guess i better start running now.
Sunday, 2 March 2008
to my mom.
ok, so today is Mother's Day. i looked up its definition on the web and according to wikipedia, "Mother's Day is a day honouring mothers, celebrated on various days in many places around the world. Mothers often receive gifts on this day." for those who don't know, in the UK and Ireland, others' Day is also called Mothering Sunday and is usually held on the fourth week of lent which is exactly three weeks before Easter Sunday. in others countries, such like back home in the Phils., it is on the third sunday of may. others would say this is just another hallmark holiday but i don't see any harm or anything wrong in giving your mom a warm tight hug for Mother's Dday.
honestly, my mom and i are on okay terms. we aren't exactly close friends but we're good. although there are times when i just don't get her or understand. and vice versa. i can blame it on age gap. or blame it on responsibility. or blame it on who my mom is and what she can do. or simply blame it on difference of generations. despite all that, we try to make it work. with a little bit of patience and understanding. it's pretty much just like any other relationship that needs working on and making a little piece of effort. and besides, i think my mom is my strength and corny as this may sound, she is like the wind beneath my wings. i would always like to make her proud of me. besides, at the end of the day, she is still my mother. and i will forever be thankful for all that she has done for me and my sister.
Song for Mama - Boyz2Men
Mama - SpiceGirls
just a small piece of advice to people, when it comes to Mother's Day, cards and gifts become insignificant, once you decide to give your moms a big tight embrace and tell her "i love you and thank you." it doesn't matter how old you are or if you think it's corny. those moments are priceless.
to my mom, happy mother's day. thank you. i love you. now and always.
Friday, 29 February 2008
do you wish for more time?
what if you had more time, what would you do? what if you had an extra day, where you be and who are you with?
time flies by real fast. sooner or later, it would already be 2009. we usually need or ask for more time in our busy lives. sometimes though, others would even want time to stand still or actually stop for a moment because they just want to live in that moment forever. believe me, there are those times you wished time just stood still so certain things lasted longer or even forever.
obviously i'm writing this because it's february 29, the extra day in a leap year, which happens every 4 years. today is an extra day to either do something different (or nothing special really. all depends on you) and today was a good day for me. my friend sonia wanted to eat at pizza hut so we made an excuse to eat lunch out. and that was to celebrate february 29, just because it is and that we might not be able spend the next leap year day together. other than that, everything went well. and there was definitely lots of laughs and pictures and more food. a good day, definitely.
so back to my question. having this extra day of the year, what would i do? i could hang out with a friend i haven't seen or talked to in a while, chill and talk in starbucks or walk around london. i could have a spa day - a day where i go to the spa and relax my nerves from the busy schedule. i could just sleep, sleep the whole day because i lack/want/need sleep. i also could go about it like i do on any given day. anything is possible really. but one thing i'd most prefer is to be with friends or family and sharing a good laugh or a nice moment. i simply want more laughs.
i want everyday to be like this day, ending with a smile on my face.
time flies by real fast. sooner or later, it would already be 2009. we usually need or ask for more time in our busy lives. sometimes though, others would even want time to stand still or actually stop for a moment because they just want to live in that moment forever. believe me, there are those times you wished time just stood still so certain things lasted longer or even forever.
obviously i'm writing this because it's february 29, the extra day in a leap year, which happens every 4 years. today is an extra day to either do something different (or nothing special really. all depends on you) and today was a good day for me. my friend sonia wanted to eat at pizza hut so we made an excuse to eat lunch out. and that was to celebrate february 29, just because it is and that we might not be able spend the next leap year day together. other than that, everything went well. and there was definitely lots of laughs and pictures and more food. a good day, definitely.
so back to my question. having this extra day of the year, what would i do? i could hang out with a friend i haven't seen or talked to in a while, chill and talk in starbucks or walk around london. i could have a spa day - a day where i go to the spa and relax my nerves from the busy schedule. i could just sleep, sleep the whole day because i lack/want/need sleep. i also could go about it like i do on any given day. anything is possible really. but one thing i'd most prefer is to be with friends or family and sharing a good laugh or a nice moment. i simply want more laughs.
i want everyday to be like this day, ending with a smile on my face.
Sunday, 24 February 2008
Speech of a Lifetime: What would you say?
Randy Pausch Lecture: Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams
"Journeys" are special University Lectures in which Carnegie Mellon faculty members share their reflections on their journeys -- the everyday actions, decisions, challenges and joys that make a life.
ok, so as you realize, this lecture was from last year and i only stumbled accross this yesterday. it was posted in one of the groups i was in in multiply. and i was touched by what i saw and heard. he was a good speaker and got me hooked. he actually got me thinking what my childhood dreams were. and for sure, i did loads of them. from becoming a teacher to a lawyer to a diplomat to a vj, and well you can say, the list goes on.
i now i'm still quite young to think about the lecture of my lifetime or whatever words of wisdom to be the topic of my last speech. i 'm not sure of what i have accomplished or what i can really be proud of. i guess there are many things to be proud of my childhood and teenage years. soon enough, i would no longer be a teen and be responsible for more things about my own life. i know that i have to make my dreams come true, and they will. but i just can help but still feel scared of what can happen. i'm scared i may not be able to handle everything. all i want to do right now is be careful of each step i make so that i can look back with no regrets. fingers crossed for now.
Friday, 22 February 2008
if you just listen carefully..
have you ever listened to a song and felt that the song was about you? that the song was telling exactly how you feel? that the song was exactly what you had in mind, in your thoughts? have you ever listened to a song and it touched a certain emotion in you that caused there to be some tears? imagine yourself quietly listening to songs on your ipod. and then playing is this song, and all of sudden you find yourself crying.
i'm sure you now have a certain song in mind. i mean who hasn't, right?
but have you ever listened to a song, which you have absolutely no idea what the song is about because you don't understand the lyrics, and you just smiled or shed a tear? you're listening to this unfamiliar song in another language and you just start crying.
call me crazy but that's what i'm feeling right now. i'm listening to this song in korean and it's so beautiful that it brings tears to my eyes. so then i searched for any english translation, and eventhough some of the lines weren't in correct grammer, it just made perfect sense.
(if you're asking me how i ended up listening to a song in korean and kinda falling in love with it, this is how. Coffee Prince also known as The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince. it's such a funny, cute and sweet koreanovela, which is being shown on pinoy tv back home and i just love it. i kinda got addicted. and yeah, that's pretty much the gist of it. now moving on. btw, click here for the english translation.)
ok so maybe i felt that way, the first time i heard it yesterday, because i have been quite moody lately and feeling all sort of sentimental feelings and emotions i haven't felt for a while. but i tried listening again today, and it was just still a beautiful song. it actually made me feel good.
what made it sound so good? was it the melody? was it the lyrics? was it the message of the song? maybe the singer or the band? i don't know. i don't know even if it was because of the show or because i was feeling emotional. maybe it's a bit of everything. tell me what you think. so sit back, close your eyes and just listen carefully.
i'm sure you now have a certain song in mind. i mean who hasn't, right?
but have you ever listened to a song, which you have absolutely no idea what the song is about because you don't understand the lyrics, and you just smiled or shed a tear? you're listening to this unfamiliar song in another language and you just start crying.
call me crazy but that's what i'm feeling right now. i'm listening to this song in korean and it's so beautiful that it brings tears to my eyes. so then i searched for any english translation, and eventhough some of the lines weren't in correct grammer, it just made perfect sense.
(if you're asking me how i ended up listening to a song in korean and kinda falling in love with it, this is how. Coffee Prince also known as The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince. it's such a funny, cute and sweet koreanovela, which is being shown on pinoy tv back home and i just love it. i kinda got addicted. and yeah, that's pretty much the gist of it. now moving on. btw, click here for the english translation.)
ok so maybe i felt that way, the first time i heard it yesterday, because i have been quite moody lately and feeling all sort of sentimental feelings and emotions i haven't felt for a while. but i tried listening again today, and it was just still a beautiful song. it actually made me feel good.
what made it sound so good? was it the melody? was it the lyrics? was it the message of the song? maybe the singer or the band? i don't know. i don't know even if it was because of the show or because i was feeling emotional. maybe it's a bit of everything. tell me what you think. so sit back, close your eyes and just listen carefully.
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
i miss manila
i miss manila.i miss the lights. i miss the food. i miss the sounds. i miss the jeepneys and the tricycles. i miss the warm weather. i miss the people. i miss everything. i didn't exactly grow up in the heart of the city. but i miss it. when you are abroad, like i am, you'll feel the way i feel. you'll feel proud of being Pinoy and will miss it always.
this entry is not gonna be long so let me just sum up everything in a song by Amber Davis entitled Manila. hope you like it as much as i do.
INTRO
(Take me back to the place I love
Take me back to the place I love, uhuh uhuh huh
Take me back to the place I love
Take me back to the place I love, uhuh uhuh)
I remember when were kids
Having barbeques in the bukid
When the brownouts came, we were never alone
We just played in the streets till the lights came on
Six o'clock in the mornin'
Bakery just opened
We can smell the bread, it was cooking from a mile away
Ain't nothing like a fresh piece to start your day in...
CHORUS
Manila (Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila
(The only place that I call home, home)
I'm comin' back to...
Manila (Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila
The only place that I call home, home)
Signal to the jeepney (pick me up)
Take me to the place where (I grew up)
Back to the kids in the park where we played all day
Some had a shed for a home but it was all okay
'Cause in Manila, we're all the same
Everybody's waiting for things to change
In the barrio, that's how it is
We didn't care much 'cause we were kids, oh
CHORUS
(Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila
(The only place that I call home, home)
I'm comin' back to...
Manila (Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila
(The only place that I call home, home)
RAP
I've been gone for a minute but I'm on the next flight
And the plane man says we can make it by night
Can't wait to touch down in my old hometown
Had a girl, we used to kick it but I doubt she's still around, yoh
It's all good 'cause I'm back in the jungle
Where the girls in bikinis all come in a bundle
And pain and poverty is everywhere
But when the smoke all clears, it's only love in the air
I've been gone too long
Gone too long
I'm comin' home (comin' back to the place I love)
Gone too long
I'm comin' home (comin' back to the place I love)
I'm comin' back to Manila
Yo yo yo yo
I say, babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako, babalik ako, babalik
Babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako sa Manila, Manila
Babalik ako, babalik ako, babalik
I'm comin' home (Manila, Manila, Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila (comin' back to the place I love)
I'm comin' back to Manila (Manila, Manila, Manila, Manila)
I'm comin' back to Manila (comin' back to the place I love)
(Manila, Manila, Manila, Manila, Manila)
(Comin' back to the place I love)
Comin' back to the place I love
Comin' back to the place I love
Comin' back to the place I love
Announcement: Blogger now in Filipino
i just found out that Blogger has announced that it now comes in Filipino. this is a nice development. they say it's 'bout time that the Filipino community's blogging power is now recognised as well. Philippines will soon be not just the world's SMS capital, but also the blogging capital. and considering that Friendster still hasn't put its site in Filipino, this is great news.
click on the photo in the link and you'll find Blogger's sign-up page in Tagalog. haha. i find it so cute when i see all links and words in tagalog. amazing. hehe.
now, will there be more Pinoys blogging because of this? we'll just have to wait and see.
http://buzz.blogger.com/2008/02/blogger-now-in-filipino.html#links
click on the photo in the link and you'll find Blogger's sign-up page in Tagalog. haha. i find it so cute when i see all links and words in tagalog. amazing. hehe.
now, will there be more Pinoys blogging because of this? we'll just have to wait and see.
http://buzz.blogger.com/2008/02/blogger-now-in-filipino.html#links
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
a grand debutante's ball
isn't it usually a big thing when a girl turns 18? we dream of a grand debutante ball with the most beautiful gown that just seems to be just your size and be waking down a red carpet ( others an aisle or staircase) to be accompanied by your escort and you're just the most beautiful girl in the whole room. i guess you get it now, i'm talking about all that glamour and splendor, the whole shebang. of course, you wish to be surrounded by friends and family and all those people who have become a significant part of your life.
one highlight of that night is the 18 somethings. 18 roses, candles, treasures, balloons, shots, etc., which we allocate to significant people in our life. the significant people who have touched our lives, who have influenced us and who have been there throughout our journey for the past 18 years. then there would be tears, hugs, laughter and more tears of joy. this night is all about you.
most girls dream of that big night, our would-be perfect night that we are to remember forever. like what they say, it's not everyday that a girl turns 18. however, not all girls have plans of celebrating it the way i just described it, but for those who do, wouldn't it have it any other way.
the other night, i attended a party of a girl turning 13 years old and did she have a grand birthday celebration. almost like those grand debutant birthdays, complete with her roses and candles. except that she didn't dance with any of her roses nor did any of her candles said a message. her reason for that was because she wants her first dance to be with a special someone. (in other words: boyfriend. she wants her first slow dance to be with her boyfriend.)
i remember my first slowdance. it was with someone who meant alot to me that time and i guess will always be special. (of course, he doesn't know that and i'm definitely not gonna tell him that.) but unlike that girl, i want my last dance to be the most special. so i hope he comes soon and asks me to dance. because the song is about to end. (but i know that my last dance wouldn't stop eventhough the music has stopped playing.)
Sunday, 17 February 2008
dancing the night away
have you ever gone to a party where there was dancing, and you just sat at your table and watched people dancing? sometimes it's actually funny. sometimes it's depressing and sad. (but only when slow music is playing.) sometimes it makes you feel good. (especially when you're going crazy on the dance floor.) but it's actually surprising what kind of things you realize by simply watching.line dancing:
a funny dance to see at a party dance floor. and mostly women dance it. so i looked it up. definition of line dance: 'A dance in which individuals line up without partners and follow a choreographed pattern of steps to country music.' ok so i guess that's simple enough then. i like to think that this dance was created for those people with two left feet. and that they may be able to join in the fun on the dance floor. hey, that's just what i think anyway.
ballroom dancing:
personally, it's very nice to see this. it looks so graceful. just like in the movies such as shall we dance and take the lead. it takes some practice to get it all right. with the right partner and the right amount of dedication, it's gonna turn out beautiful and simply amazing.
slow dancing:
"here's to valentine's day", that's what the dj said when he started playing sweet slow music. and like third-fourths of the people on the dance floor went back to their seats. there was just like five couples on the dance floor. while i was watching, there was a certain feeling that came to me. memories as well came to me with the songs playing. i blame the bad choice of songs. hahaha. kidding aside, i felt the longing for someone to dance with. someone to hold me close and whisper sweet nothings in my ear. someone to be holding me close and feel his heartbeat beating with mine. someone in whose arms i can feel warmth, comfort, and i get to forget everything around me as if time has stood still for the both of us. i'm not pertaining to my past anymore. i think i have passed that stage by now. i'm now just longing for that feeling again.
whoa, single awareness didn't hit me until today, but boy for a moment there, did it hit me hard. on the other side, it gives me hope. to have that final last dance i've been waiting for.
honestly, i love the dance floor. not many people know this, but somehow i am a frustrated dancer. and it's fun to dance. you are also able to let out certain emotions through your dance. just like blogging, dance is an outlet for emotions. i like the satisfaction i get from dancing. it's nice to get your heart beating fast, makes you feel alive. so once you hear the music, don't hold back. who cares if you're looking like a fool? just dance your heart out. and for that moment, nothing else matters. you know what they say,
"Work like you don't need money,Love like you've never been hurt,
And dance like no one's watching."
And dance like no one's watching."
Saturday, 16 February 2008
The Do's and Don'ts of Romantic Comedies
Real lessons in love you learn from the movies.
okay, so i got this online. and i just had to share this. being the hopeless romantic i am, i just love romantic comedies and can't get enough of them. who knows, maybe you too can learn a thing or two from this.
Four Weddings and a Funeral Lesson: Don't be afraid to mingle at weddings.
hey, weddings are suppose to be fun. not another day to remind you that you are single. it's suppose to give you hope that it would be your turn someday. hey, maybe you could catch a bouquet or two.
Say Anything Lesson: Do make a grand romantic gesture.
sometimes it's not enough just saying 'i love you' to people. sometimes actions speak louder than words. sometimes they could even mean more.
When Harry Met Sally Lesson: Don't rule out an old friend.
Bridget Jones' Diary Lesson: Don't date your boss (even if he's cute).
it's just gets too complicated. don't mix business with pleasure. well that's what they say anyway.
Hairspray Lesson: Do go after what you really want.
Hitch Lesson: Don't try and outsmart the game.
okay, it's been said that love is a game. and in every game, there are rules. you can memorize all the rules and think you're all ready to outsmart the game, only to find out that there is an exception to every rule.
My Big Fat Greek Wedding Lesson: Do try to get along with their family.
for me, this is a BIG MUST. really.
The 40-Year-Old Virgin Lesson: Don't listen to your moronic friends.
you are the best person to know what to do. in the end, it would be your own initiative and your own decision. but sometimes a different perspective wouldn't hurt.
The Wedding Singer Lesson: Do look beyond the mullet.
You've Got Mail Lesson: Don't spend so much time on the internet.
hmm.. okay, so certain love stories start from online chatting and certain friendly networks. but sometimes it's so much more fun to go out and mingle. the internet can be so deceiving and so fake. just be careful.
source: http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/dosanddontsofromanticcomedies.html
okay, so i got this online. and i just had to share this. being the hopeless romantic i am, i just love romantic comedies and can't get enough of them. who knows, maybe you too can learn a thing or two from this.
Four Weddings and a Funeral Lesson: Don't be afraid to mingle at weddings.
hey, weddings are suppose to be fun. not another day to remind you that you are single. it's suppose to give you hope that it would be your turn someday. hey, maybe you could catch a bouquet or two.
Say Anything Lesson: Do make a grand romantic gesture.
sometimes it's not enough just saying 'i love you' to people. sometimes actions speak louder than words. sometimes they could even mean more.
When Harry Met Sally Lesson: Don't rule out an old friend.
Bridget Jones' Diary Lesson: Don't date your boss (even if he's cute).
it's just gets too complicated. don't mix business with pleasure. well that's what they say anyway.
Hairspray Lesson: Do go after what you really want.
Hitch Lesson: Don't try and outsmart the game.
okay, it's been said that love is a game. and in every game, there are rules. you can memorize all the rules and think you're all ready to outsmart the game, only to find out that there is an exception to every rule.
My Big Fat Greek Wedding Lesson: Do try to get along with their family.
for me, this is a BIG MUST. really.
The 40-Year-Old Virgin Lesson: Don't listen to your moronic friends.
you are the best person to know what to do. in the end, it would be your own initiative and your own decision. but sometimes a different perspective wouldn't hurt.
The Wedding Singer Lesson: Do look beyond the mullet.
You've Got Mail Lesson: Don't spend so much time on the internet.
hmm.. okay, so certain love stories start from online chatting and certain friendly networks. but sometimes it's so much more fun to go out and mingle. the internet can be so deceiving and so fake. just be careful.
source: http://movies.yahoo.com/feature/dosanddontsofromanticcomedies.html
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